Do what make you happy. And it's the process which make you grow, not the end product.

New Year Resolutions

2011-12-28T17:14:00.000+08:00

3 more days to 2012..Which means I have 2days to reflect on my 2011 and make New Year Resolutions for 2012..Need to find the time to sit down, listen to my heart and reflect on 2011..Need that quality time for myself once again to make sure I can think Straight.

2012, What shall I make for my New Year Resolutions..All along I want to learn Yoga..So that will be first on my list I guess..

School Holidays 4 more days to 2012

2011-12-27T14:24:00.000+08:00

4 more days before bidding goodbye to 2011, saying hello to 2012. Time just flies so fast till I think I lost track of it. Better than losing myself while improving...

2011, an eventful year. Graduated from ITE, Moving to a higher education, Poly. Losing a classmate of mine who shared the same birth-date as me. Trying to cope with the changes facing in poly. Mentally preparing myself for best friend leaving for further studies in Aust. Wow, sometimes, I just find how amazing human can be. Some mentioned are still improving but I survived this year..Which is kind of wonderful. At a point of time, I wanted to give up,just head out to work and earn the money to set myself free. Always remind myself the road I been through just to land myself in where I am now, never easy but I still made my way up. That keeps me going even though I did not do well.

Somehow, I just feel different now. I can't describe is good or bad. But at least, I have seen quite a no. of 人性丑陋的一面。Mostly in school.. Yes, I don't feel safe like how I used to be in ITE.This big environment I am in now make me feel scared. 你身边的朋友不一定是你所想象的朋友。案中有案。This seem to be the fact I learnt in Poly.. Despite this, I still believe in true friends does exist.=)

What keeps me going are the support I get from my friends, cos i know I am always not alone. My family try their very best to keep me going too. And also this guy,who always know me well,gives me the encouragement I need,BFF!=D

2012, An Important and Big Year for me and some of my friends too! For those who are turning into that Big 2 will know!=) Shall post this pic which is from fb.=)

25 more days to 2012

2011-12-06T21:34:00.001+08:00

Hi! I am back blogging.=) Yes, for the past week, I had been busy with upcoming ICAs revision and slacking during the weekend which I am suppose to study..Spent my tue watching MAMA which was held in SG! My handsome are the main person who did the opening for the MAMA! OMG! I was shouting and almost burst out in tears when he came out and made that speech..He is good in english..Can't wait for his new movie /drama to be out=) Super junior won the best album of the year, and they cried in joy. Although I'm no ELFs, but I do feel touched by their words..=) Fighting, ELFs & Suju!<3

Christmas will be here in 21 days time and 25 more days to 2012. Quite amazed that how fast time can pass by..Had been thinking about what shall I want for this Christmas, now i shall list down. Dividing them into 2 categories: Non-material and Material. Which mean one is $$ cannot buy, another is $$ can buy.

Non-Material Christmas Gifts

1) My family, friends to be healthy and happy=D

2) Love people more than the love they shower to me.
3) Have a meal with my friends, do lots of catching up =)

Material Christmas Gifts

1) Small, Portable Hair dryer.

2) New Handphone pouch
3) Glee season 1&2 DVD.. they always make me smile no matter how unhappy or how bad my day can be.

This is what I can think of now.If I have any, I will update over here.=)

Another 1.5 week to go and I'll having my term break holidays! Yeah! Last 2 wk of dec in 2011. Have lots of catch up to do with my friends. Another reason for us to get together and enjoy the night. Have to spend more time with joelle.. She is leaving SG in around 2 mth's time..So This mth is like the girls' mth, where shopping, gathering come first.. Of course, not forgetting to spend time wisely by doing revision during the 2wk break.. Alright, shall go off now.. Till then~(wishlist last updated: 10/12/11)

2more days..Happy Birthday in advance=)

2011-11-28T23:45:00.002+08:00

How fast can time passed, another month or more to go, we are hitting 2012! Time really flies, esp when major events happens in my life for 2011.. Time just go pass so fast till I lost track and sometime, I even lose myself.

But I'm glad, things seem to be on track again..And I want to be as happy as I can and should be...ICAs are coming up soon..This wed on Econs, nxt tues have both POA and Stats, freaking stress! I hope I can do well in these tests, at least something off my mind before my 2wks holidays.. I want to enjoy!=)

I just want to spend my time with my family and friends..Somehow or rather, I feel I am very lucky in a way that by using my 10 fingers, i can count the no. of friends I have now. Which include the close ones.. Maybe I shall name them out and you will know, Joelle, Eugene, Wendy, Waishi, Jieyi, Cheeleng. Ok I'm done.=) See, I never lie.6 Friends on the list and they are the close ones.=) Only 1 guy, he should be honoured! JK, ^^

If inclusive of poly friends, just nice 10 friends. O well, my circle is just that small..What to do? But they are the people I am willing to spend the mosted..Because they are worth it.=) Always worth it..=) Need to crack my head for christmas presents ideas ardy!

Maybe I should step out of my comfort zone and starts to do know more people.. Gemini is well known to be good in socialising ;)

Somehow, I am seeing at some people's true colours. I told my mum about it..My mum is like my best friends and she know a lot of my stuffs, I even told her about J. Yes, I told my mum about this girl. I just don't feel good being friends with her.. She seem to be 笑里藏刀,like the silence killer. I don't like the way she act,not knowing which is the real her at times..Maybe I should be wary of her too..Can't reveal too much with her around..xiaolan,i don't know if you are acting or what. But you just make me be careful of you,your actions are making me getting pissed off.

This matter had been inside my head for quite some time, do I treat you like my bro or just because I want to make up the lost feelings therefore I wanted us to be back together? When I am with J, he make me feel happy, I just smile from the bottom of my heart. But I know, J and I won't last..I know that very well.. But for you, you made me feel the same, yet I tell you my problems and you helped me with it. Yes, we shared the same Ice-cream, same straw, spoon for soup..But somehow, the feeling of love is fading. For now, it's is more like a bro-sis relationship, which I enjoys it.=) Cos I know there is always someone out there for me, as my best friend.=) Shall let all these remain as how it is now, Best friend=)

Advance Happy Birthday to that 1 guy who is honoured to be in the list..=) 30th nov 2011.=) So happy that he is celebrating with his family..And he super lucky! He is going taiwan with his family and I am demanding a gift from taiwan! hehe!

Typical girl. Guys, you are just visual animals.

2011-11-22T02:03:00.000+08:00

Alright, I know i should be in bed at this time (1.51am) but somehow i just feel like blogging before heading for bed... Was wondering how will life be if I can find a guy who likes me and at the same time, I likes him too.. I know, at my age, i shouldn't be thinking so much about this.

when things will eventually happens when the right time comes, but somehow, i can't control it.. Always wondering where is my another half, finding someone who likes you may seem easy, but finding someone you likes and likes you back the same way or even more is not easy at all... Shall leave all these things aside and stay focus on things that i want for the upcoming sem for poly.=)

Joelle was telling me about being a typical girl,and that term sounds so foreign to me..What she say is right, humans are visual animals and guys like pretty girls follow by personality. I am like the lazy kind which don't don't do lots of skincare or to pamper myself in a way or so..

I know, people always say, 世上只有懒女人，没有丑女人。I believe in that, so I need to be hard-working when comes to skincare not only for facial and also body-wise too. Before having a chance to change my appearance, I need to find funds for that and shall work as much as possible during the nxt sem break..=)

Alright, Shall head for bed now, Nights world!

(p.s: I think i function better at night! Write better blogs and more inspirations)

11/11/11

2011-11-11T23:11:00.028+08:00

What a nice date today, 11/11/11. 6 '1's And if you manage to catch 11.11.11am, that will be a total of 12 "1".. How wonderful can that be..=) Suppose to spend my 11.11 outside, but everyone is quite busy with their own things since sch reopens..Make me quite sian at home though..Joelle did ask me to go out with her colleagues, but i used up all my concession, so decided to stay at home..=) Asked Eugene to go out for ice-cream at night, he want his jogging, can't blame him though..His Nafa test is coming up and he's going into NS in around 1/2yr time..

Actually, 11/11/11 means Singles' day too..And most people will hope they won't be single on this day next year... Well, I do hope i won't be single on the same day next year, but these things are very hard to say..Just go with the flow bah.=) studies comes first, I want to enjoy first before thinking of settling down for good.=)

Was Reading my past blog posts while walking home from MRT station,So many things had changed.. Be it my thinking, the positiveness and people around me.. Looking back, It's part of growing up. This blog records most of my growing up..The only thing is that this is a open diary where everyone can read what I am thinking..I used to be so negative in thinking, till i wanted to end my life.. Luckily, I did not. Thank god.=)

I am still growing up, still learning in life..=) And i am glad to be alive. Always be =)

Trying very hard to keep up with the pace for studies, cutting down not to be so lazy and be more hard-working like how I used to be in Sec Sch n ITE..having study grp with my friend who studied before the modules i am studying now..=) I gonna tell myself to add oil on studies and do my very best for this sem!=) JIAYOUS! Elieen! To all my friends be it in poly, NS or working, JIAYOUS also!=)

<3 Elieen

Holidays! Life is finally at ease..=)

2011-09-26T01:32:00.000+08:00

Yeah! School holidays! My fave period of the whole year, 7wks of school holidays.. And I'm not working in daiso anymore, which means I am super free at home.. After so long then i decided to blog again, it's just like that urge to blog..

Doing nothing during the holidays are so good! finally i can truly rest during the holidays and give myself a good break before the new sem opens..when the new sems open, I'll have to chiong for the whole sem.. did not score well for this sem, which means getting a lower possibility of getting into the specialisation that I want so nxt sem is very impt to me..Hopes nothing goes wrong and I can do well in the coming sem, which allow me to have a big jump on my gpa.. Not pinning my hopes on Locals Uni anymore, look like SIM is the way to my uni route..Elieen JIAYOUS!=)

My life. Changes.

2011-08-18T02:51:00.000+08:00

Hi! I'm back..not for good i guess..While waiting for my drama to upload to the net, I shall blog. The last time i blogged was around 1 mth plus. Which means it's long.. It's not that i'm not updating anymore, it's just i wanna to update another diary of mine.A personal one. So this blog is more like a general blog to update about my life, to let out my rants if any.

1 more week, exams are here. And I'm quite scared about it. I don't know if i can cope or not...I quit my job just in time for exams and revision. So i hope things will goes well.. I want to excel, but i know i can't. So i only want to make sure i pass the modules, and don't take any supp papers.That'll be good enough..

So many things had change. Be it circle of friends, place of study..just within a year. It's seem hard to digest it for my case. I still want to slack more, enjoy life while i'm still young. Just had a small gathering not long ago..such a long time since we last met! So happy that day.=) It's called a prata gathering. But only the girls had prata, the guys had smth else. We chatted, update about our lifes, Take pictures, laugh.That's us. The ITE bunch of friends.We have our own problems, be in studies, life or relationship. But we seem to be able to support each other when we need their support..If any of you happen to read, this, you'll agree with my words.

I'm trying my best to withdraw from you. At least I'm trying my very best not to think about you so often. I'm looking forward to meet you up during the holidays.Still thinking about that plan i have. I don't know if things will work out or not.=) And I'm like stuck in relationship. I can't go over my barrier. And i know i won't sacrifice to make the relationship works, it's not to the extend yet. Shugs..Let me be focus on my studies first! I don't want to talk about relationship. You can say I'm avoiding or running away, it doesn't matter...It's just a way of mine to handle relationship problems.

Alright, I shall go off to bed. Drama isn't up yet, but my eyes are closing..Doing revision tml @SP. So I better get my beauty sleep now..=)

Everything is back.=)

2011-07-09T00:57:00.000+08:00

Alright,I know, two mths nv blog ardy. So i shall blog tonight to keep myself awake.. CCA, I din't go for my cca anymore. I can't strike a balance btw my cca, studies and work. So I give up on cca, and go for my work and studies. However, i still can't strike a balance btw work and studies due to certain reasons. So I'll have to leave my work by this month to in order to focus on my studies. Studies come first, everything can do later.

Life in school is good. Cos i know a bunch of friends who are younger than me, but we have so much in common. Of course, I still miss ITE and some of my Sec sch friends.=( At least, from no motivation to go school until with motivation to go school. It's not easy if not for this bunch of friends I know in school.=)

Although I'm struggling in school, but i know i can overcome and do well for my exams! JIAYOUS!

My love life? Haha, I had a crush on someone in school. I told my friends. They are like, Omg, you shd have told us. But I think, even if I say it out, I don't think anything will happen. So no point, and I move on!=) Still, you still inside my mind. What Joelle dear said is right, I don't seem to find someone who can replace you, that's why I can't get over you. I need to get over you.Seriously, how long have i been in love with you? It's time i should move on. I can't waste my youth away. I want to enjoy as long as i can do so.

Had a good chat with dear just now. It's been a long time since we last sat down and chat!=) Let's have this chat session more!=) I know you'll be leaving in abt 5 mths time. Shall spend more time tgt during my holidays..=) Let me treat you to dinner someday!

靠人人倒，靠树树倒，还是靠自己最好。=）

School. Week 4.

2011-05-10T18:18:00.000+08:00

It's been a Month since school starts. Hope that everyone is getting used to their new friends, environment...

How I have been doing in sch? Well, I can't say is good or bad.But at least it's still consider alright for now.

Studies isn't smth exciting.. So nothing much to say. Only one word. STRESS.

CCA? yup, I manage to join a cca and decided to have cca so when I need to distress, I can have another way to do so. I know, CCA is not a must. But I want a CCA cos I don't want to make my life go to waste without doing something that I want and like, Music.

Alright, got to go. CCA starting in 10min time.. theory lessons=)

Moving on, from where I fell.

2011-05-04T00:10:00.000+08:00

It's been so long since i last updated my blog. 2mths ardy. So many things happened within 2mths. Friends moving on to somewhere better for our future, A classmate of mine passed away. Getting use to Poly life and trying very hard to hang on before i falls again..

Everyone manage to get a place in Poly. But the amount of stress we are facing, nobody seem to understand..Look at wendy and Jieyi, their faces just say everything. Stress. Coping with poly work and life. At least they are enjoying some parts. I'm not even enjoying any part of my poly life. Maybe later, but not the current ones. I'm balancing so many things in my life now, Catching up with whatever i can now.

Sometimes, you wanted something so badly, you'll work hard towards it. but when you reach your goal, you realized, it's totally different from what you thought or suppose it to be in the first place. You'll start to question yourself, is this really what you wanted in the first place? Did you make the right decision? That's what my mind is going through now,asking myself all about the choices i had made. Is this really what i wanted?

寂寞不痛

2011-03-07T02:47:00.004+08:00

It's going to be 3am, yet i can't get to bed. No more school, no more waking up early. No more caring teachers to sms me, "where r u". Yes, my two years of school had already ended. I enjoyed, i cried, i shouted in joy, been in anger. And yes, 2 years had just passed and if i get a chance, i'll be moving to another phase of study life in mid-april.. I'll not miss the school, but the people inside the school. My friends, My teachers. The common memories shared among us for the past 2 years. Nobody can take that away from us.

Moving on, to be strong. Keep telling myself not to depend so much on other people, learn to be independent, be strong and move on. Friends come and go, learn to accept the fact and move on. Those who stick with you are the ones who know you best, accept you for who you are. had be on facebook so often i start to follow grps and some grps have good Chinese quotes. Shall share 1 today.

一个人单身久了，就不想去恋爱，会感觉朋友越来越重要；
一个人单身久了，就不想去逛街，会越来越喜欢在家听歌；
一个人单身久了，就变得成熟起来，会比以前越来越爱父母；
一个人单身久了，就买很多鞋子，会独自去很多很远的地方旅游；
一个人单身久了，就不经意悄悄流泪，会在众人面前什么都无所谓

寂寞不痛

2011-03-07T02:47:00.003+08:00

一个人单身久了，就不想去恋爱，会感觉朋友越来越重要；
一个人单身久了，就不想去逛街，会越来越喜欢在家听歌；
一个人单身久了，就变得成熟起来，会比以前越来越爱父母；一个人单身久了，就买很多鞋子，会独自去很多很远的
地方旅游；
一个人单身久了，就不经意悄悄流泪，会在众人面前什么都无所谓

2 more weeks..

2011-02-11T12:05:00.000+08:00

Alright, Happy Lunar New Year to Everyone! Kind of late to say that but it's still within the 15days for new year right!=) Hong Bao this year not so much compared to last year..=( but nvm la, since i'm working it's just smth extra though.. Phuket trip coming up in around 1mth's time..Why do i feel that the clock turns so fast?!have the earth spin faster than usual?

School, only 2 weeks left. Rushing out reports and projects.. And doing whatever needed to make sure we graduate from the school... I enjoyed my life for these 2 years, but now i fear for the new page in my life.. Been slacking too much in school which lead me to have this fear to develop..What am i suppose to do when my clique won't be around me to support me when i need the support from them? Done with the courses for poly and i'm just hoping for the best to be able to get into poly..Looks like i have a lot to catch up in poly if i manage to get into it. I'm glad i din't wasted my 2 years of life doing nothing..

I will miss the wonderful time spent in school, the people will be the ones i'll miss the most..T'chers who are so wonderful and good to us. I love all of you! Clique(guys, ladies), Miss Joei, Aunty Jo and t'chers who taught me before. Learnt so much over here..Thanks for everything..=)

Post No.230

2011-01-26T18:49:00.000+08:00

It's the No. 230th post for this blog and also the first blog post for 2011. This month is going to end in a few more days and CNY is on my way now..Done with all the shopping and everything, just waiting for it to get the Hong Bao and the Phuket trip!

Busy with Final Year Project and the kids in Zhenghua are cute! My friends over there manage to find "boyfriends" there! Event went well and most of the kids are cooperative which help us lighten our workload. We manage to achieve our aim and we give out a lot of gifts to the kids! Spent quite an amount just on gifts, thank god we have the sponsors from NEA if not we'll be so broke by end of the event.

Another month to go before we leave the school to somewhere we belong , be it the working world, army world, the study world or nowhere for some people who don't know what they should expect in life. For me, what i want in life, a course of my choice, being thankful and alive and being able to earn money to replay my parents' for bringing me up. These may sound easy but not to those who may not be able to do either one i mention above. Just heard that a classmate of mine may not have a chance to do so and I really hope that she'll stay strong enough to overcome the challenges that god have thrown to her. Hoping that the report will be a good report and she'll be on her way to recovery road soon. Life is really so fragile..Please cherish the time you will be spending every minute with everyone as you don't know what will happen the next minute.

Please bless her to be on her way to the recovery road asap and be back with her family soon, Amen.

It's time to sit down and seriously think about my future path..I know what i really wants, but it's another matter if i am given a chance get to achieve it or not. Being in a dilemma is not a good thing, which i'm doing now..I need someone to guide me along but i know i shouldn't be asking for that since i'm learning to grow up. Am I regretting the choices I made for the past 2 years?

Picture for the day.=) 1/1/2011

The last Day of 2010

2010-12-31T13:14:00.000+08:00

Let this be the last post for 2010 for my blog.

2010 is a year full of ups and downs, tears and laughter. Problems arises, problems solved. But I'm glad i'm still alive and grateful for what god gives me, love, challenges and problems to make me a stronger person.=)
Thank you for bringing people like Wendy&Clique, Kai Hong to my circle of friends.Thank for making my life story such a colourful one..=)Thank you for keeping Joelle, Eugene, Mummy with me for the past few years.They are really great help to my life and good support when i needed one. Loving every moment right now..<3
Will be going out tonight for countdown with clique, 2011 is coming in less than 12hours, All i wish for next year is everyone to be healthy and happy.Sound really foolish for the happy part, but as long as everyone is happy around me, I'll be too..=) 2011, looking forward with a mix feelings, graduating from school which means 2years passed so fast,applying for poly and if possible, going to poly and being in a brand new environment with brand new friends.
Please Bless me and my loved ones with good health, Be happy and Strength to keep moving on in life.Amen

nov is coming to an end, dec is otw..

2010-11-28T15:38:00.000+08:00

Nov is moving away, here comes dec! Mixed feeling actually, this year is quite ups and downs, with tears shed, laughters and joys shared. I really love&hate 2010.love for the joy, laughters and happines i manage to shared to the people i truly love.People like my clique, i always enjoy being with them, be it in school or going out for shopping..laughters and tears shared tgt. I'm really grateful, thankful for me to meet people like you girls in one of my turning point in life.I wonder how'll my two years be without knowing you girls.Thanks girls& <3

Joelle is another person who i know i can share everything under the sun with her.Althought she's busy with her A'level this year, but her A's will end in a day's time and she'll be free from exams and just play will do for her.She's always there for me and the outing time that we spent for the past 11mths is very little but precious too.=) My dear, you did you best for everything already, let's leave it to god to decide alright? Be happy and enjoy your free time from tml's onwards!

There's so many people i wanna thank and meet up before 2010 comes to an end.Which mean Dec will be a busy mth with meeting people, going out and enjoy shopping with my family..Balancing 3 things in life is not easy and i'm letting go one to make sure my life is in balance again. I will need to spend quality time with people whom i love and care.So if any of you gotten smth special from me in Dec, don't be surprise ok!=)

There's another person i wanna thank but better not to say it here.Really thank for whatever this person have done for me.I know that you can be real slow in somethings but at least you'll be there for me if i hint you to do so..=)

Need to prepare for work later, Rainy and cold day people.Take care ok, and I'll ring people soon to meet up.<3

sending my mind&soul to travelling

2010-11-24T15:58:00.000+08:00

I want to send my mind&soul to travelling. Be it inside a coma to let my mind&soul be free again. I don't mind that, can someone just use a bat and hit my head? I rather forget everything than to go through the torture. Had been watching drama to distress and it's a rainy&cold day, which make me emo in a way. Finding ways to find myself back, to motivate myself again and be happy again. But i can't find any reason for me to be happy, to be carefree....I very tired of everything, i want to break free, break away...

Fate is always playing with us, and it will always be there to torture us, to let us grow up. And we are always trying to break free in the hands of fate, because, there's always people who won't believe in what fate have arranged for them down their path. They believe in their dreams, their faith and they can change the fate which was given to them.. Do i have the willpower to play with what fate is giving me now? Can i overthrow the things which fate have arranged for me, to free myself from the Fate's hands?

Joelle's A'level is over and i'm happy for her, at least she can live the life she wanted for a long time^^...She'll be working and getting her social life back for good..The time she had given to her studies will be coming back to her and i believe what she sacrifice is worth doing so for her dreams..Be Happy^^

It's raining and my heart is aching. My eyes are tired and i want to rest for a longer time.Bye~

I lost track from where i used to be.

2010-11-08T19:45:00.000+08:00

Losing track in life is very easy. Getting back is damm hard... I want to go back on track, forget all about holidays, focus on my modules and getting those A's i need.... I HATE TO BE OFF TRACK! AND IT'S JUST NOT ME!

I really need to focus, on the goals i need to get. Not on the after school fun, not the love relationship i so called need.. Elieen! Please Stay Focus!

10-10-10

2010-10-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

Shall update at such a nice date. 10-10-10.. Just came back from a friend's birthday party..Did a lot of catching up with some of my friends... Holidays are ending in 15mins time and New school terms starts.. Need to think and path out where i should go and do after this course.. din't do much on holidays. More like working and slacking, not like last holidays, my clique always go out.. Everyone is busy with something though..

What's my path in the future? What shall i do when i leave school? There are so many unsolved questions inside my head.. And i need someone to guide me, advice me on what choices i have to let myself move on.. Hope i can meet Mummy on 25oct and we can really sit down and have a "mum&daughter chat

Alright, better go to bed as school starts at 8am tml! URG! so early for me! Nights~world.

2010-09-24T02:20:00.001+08:00

In school now.. come for camp after work..=) Happy Belated Birthday to Joelle! You are 19th! Welcome to the club!=)
Exams are over, I did my best.. What done can't be undone.. I can only hope for the best..^^ I miss that first musical i ever watched! I want to watch more musical !! Quarreled with my mum before i came out of the house... I know she feel hurt but so do I. She'll nv know whenever i quarreled with her, i'll lock myself in the room and cry.. Don't talk about all these anymore. Let it pass!
Shall enjoy today&camp; later going out with linda n Joelle! =)

2010-09-03T00:37:00.004+08:00

感情用事是自毁前途的杀手，不要因为心情和感情让你忘记你的目标和理想。
为了一个人或一群朋友的一些话而害了自己，不值得。
The pain i had been through, make me stronger and better now.The past, is already over and the bunch of people don't have to appear again to make my life back to one square. This week seem to be a bad week for my loved ones. My sister n darling have their own problems which make me worry for them. I hope the following weeks they will be better and happier after all the problems are solved.
The first wish for 11.11 remains, the second one ardy change to something else..=) Waiting for the first wish to fulfill is consider hard,grabbing on to that glimpse of hope sound stupid, but i won't give up until i know he found someone better.
Bad timing to blog now as haven't started for mock exam tml..So,back to studies now! JIAYOUS!

T'chers Day...

2010-09-01T01:33:00.001+08:00

Teachers' Day. A Day meant for the special ones who educate the future generations in schools. Went back to Css today. Everyone seem to be busy with final exams for this sem for my batch of sec 5.. Two years since i left school for higher education, So many things had changed. Teachers leaving and coming in. Getting Promotion and retiring from teaching. System changes. I still linger in the memories of the old Css, From the Jurong old campus to the new west coast campus many Sweet, Salty, Bitter memories i brought along with me together with the moving. I remember how bad i was in sec 1 and 2. I remembered the beautiful time i spent in school just chit-chat and doing nothing after lessons. The foolish stuffs i had done, the tears i had shed. They are the best proves that I'm alive.

The quarrel i had with friends, when failure overtake me, when i find myself telling me that, it's time to leave the world for good..There's always that someone there for me. From joelle to Miss Tian& all other t'chers. I know they are always there for me. Although some of the t'chers whom i know are no longer in css, I wish them all the best in their new environment and I really miss them a lot. Esp, Mrs Png. The last time i saw her was Last year. But before i could formally say good bye to her in person, she ardy left.. I miss her..=( Friendship problem was a killer point for me. Like what he said before, " Sec Sch seem to be so drama". Which is true in my case. In life, you have to learn to let go certain item, people who don't seem to be with you anymore. Letting it go will be a blessing in disguise. That's what i learnt by letting go certain things in life.

Tears roll down my cheeks, the guilt is back. And i know my tears are for the guilt and the love i have from people who truly love me.. I Love all of you...

Start of yog Holidays

2010-08-14T23:10:00.000+08:00

Hello! Back to updates..Had National day celebration on 6/9/10.. After that went to Kallang to ice-ski. Din't skate with them, but had fun watching them playing. Kai Hong is like a Child who started to learn walking... Chee Leng is the speeder and they manage to make wen bin fall! Wendy joined us after that. KFC for dinner, Wanted to play bowling but the place have tournament so decided to head to marina area ( AGAIN!!!) to try our luck at the bowling alley. Went to walk around and after long waiting for a bowling alley, we decided to go to pit stop instead. Made a booking and jieyi joined us after her work. 8 of us had so much fun over there. Our laughter filled up the place and all of us love to play games which required snatching... XD played around 2.30 then took bus home.. Really Love the get-together with clique although we see each other in school everyday.

Went to watch December Rains on wed, it's quite rush though but i guess i was just too anxious and excited to catch the musical. Overall It's very good, some flaw which can be more dramatic and improvement on it. Kit Chan have a powerful voice! I really like when she sang 我终于看到,it's her solo and it's a show-stopper! The cast are very very good!I cried so badly at the last act.. I want to watch it again, but due to money constants and i think this month my money will fly away very fast, so nvm bah.. I almost can watch again but din't win so unable to watch it again..=(

Now is the school holidays for yog, which means special time for revision. Just caught the YOG opening on channel 5, It's very very nice.. ESP on the lighting up of the flame at the marina platform. So does the fireworks. Still thinking of how to make full use of my school holiday.. maybe i should plan a time-table for my revision.. going out with clique on tue again..=)

It's Aug! Time SERIOUSLY flies!

2010-08-04T01:07:00.000+08:00

This time, Kind of have the urge to update.. better update become i become lazy..=)

Last week was a hectic week for me and my course mates. Had to do a event for one of the modules we are studying now and it's part of the project and marks counted for GPA.

Had so many things to handle for the booth and I really have to thanks the KH&clique! They are really great help.. I'm sorry i din't help much in building up part... You guys did a great job.. Some stuffs we have to get pretty last min but we manage to complete the booth!.=) My team is special cos is made up of 6guys 1girl(which is me!) and manual work normally they tend to do.Guys are not so meticulous compared to girls so it's like i do the meticulous part and they do the manual work. pictures will be up later..=)

Wendy went for her 3weeks study grp at simei.. so won't be seeing her for the following 2weeks..Everyone will forget about her by then! (JK, I won't forget you la!) As usual, school's busy..With projects and upcoming mock exams..have 2 proposal to submit this week.. have to rush it out! JYJY! Bao Bei's A'level is coming! Hope she can do well in her prelims and A'level. Then she will be free and we can meet up real soon!

Something to be happy about, Holidays are coming in 2wks time! YOG holidays! XD I like! extra weeks and excuse to watch more drama.. (and also to do some revision)

Had been thinking about my path to the future. And where should i go for the courses... Actually, i pretty lost about it.. I need someone to help me with it and at least talk to me, listen to me. Give me guidance so i can somehow find the path which is truly belong to me.. If there is really a time machine in the world, would i choose to step into it and turn everything back or choose to move forward? This question had been in my mind for quite a long time.. I had been procrastinating about going back to sec sch and visit the t'chers. I tend to push things back..I must go within this mth, I don't want to miss my chance saying good bye to my humantites t'cher. I'll miss her a lot..

Catching a few dramas now, cos singapore drama is way too boring! Beauty Know No Pain a.k.a 女人最痛 is a very good drama with a good cast and also good storyline which talk about the problems career women faced and how they cope, handle it.Watched till ep 6 and some quote from ep 6 which i really like the mosted.

1. 你们男人哪里有女人那么痛!

2. 是不是吃了止痛药就不痛了？

Back on track!

2010-07-25T13:51:00.000+08:00

Hey! I'm finally updating.. Kind of lazy to do updating nowadays, and also busy with school matters. Alright, my last post was like so long ago! so, this update maybe a bit windy..

02/07/10, went out with clique and went to have Astons! Love the low-price and big serving of food! Had grilled fish for lunch&dinner, and jieyi treat us again! Thanks Girl! Forget the details but i rmb we went walking around and decided to celebrate cheeleng & waishi birthday tgt. So we brought a cake from breadtalk and decided to go to Pit-Stop, A place for chilling out and playing boardgames which are not found in singapore. We were the only group and we laughed,played like nobody business! We really enjoyed ourselves..Sang the song on 12.00am 3/7/10 for both birthday Girls and had picture taken for memorable purpose.=) Jieyi open her royce Chocolate for us to eat and I love Chocolates! My next shopping spree will be in christmas!

Went to watch Nodame the Finale on my own and I was going crazy for the movie! OMG, Finally they kissed! And this is the only Japan drama/movie i go crazy for! Really love the Main actress a lot. She manage to act totally from the anime!

Went out with the clique again on 17/7/10, this time.. Went to the same old place called marina square and I,Jieyi&Wendy reach earlier to get Waishi&Cheeleng's Presents. Brought a digitial photo frame for waishi and WaterProof Camera for Cheeleng. It's used to be I'm always late when we meet up outside school, but for now, it's different! Waishi was late for 1/2hr, and Cheeleng was Late for 2hours! While waiting for Cheeleng to reach, we decided to walk to Parco@MW.. It's more like a new concept Departmental mall with Affordable Clothings and unqiue shops. Kind of like the concept. Walked around and find some special items! After Cheeleng reached, we headed to Xing Wang and This time, It's wendy's turn to treat! XD We are pretty hungry and we ordered quite a lot of food...Had quite a full lunch/dinner. I love my clique so much, cos when we go out, laughter always surround us! I wanted to see fireworks but the girls seem to be too lazy to walk, so no fireworks for me..=( Wanted to catch a movie but the timing don't seem to fit us so Decided to play bowling instead. Only played one round, but Wendy's good at the end! Manage to get 3strikes in a round! Wendy, go join Bowling Club!Pro jiu shi Pro!

Skip Skip till 22nd, Went to play bowling at CDans! It's fun, played for 4rounds and Everyone's skills are getting better, expect for wendy.. Seem to deprove a bit. It's like a mini-gathering before wendy go for her 3weeks study trip@Simei.. Although singapore is small, but travelling still consider long for me at least.. From CCK to Simei, nid at least 1 1/2hrs.. Take care WENDY!! We all will miss you!

Ystd went to Kai Hong's house for EOP 'Meeting'.. You'll be wondering why i kind of bracket the meeting, well a meeting become a session for Game of Life.. xp But overall, it's fun with the guys(luckily this time none of them is drunk!) and we talked about some stuffs regarding the school.. And i know so much about someone else. Now i really dislike this person. Pointing fingers is the person's signature action. I do feel sorry for that another person to have to carry the blame. At least i get the suitation right now.
Alright, off to do my work now! bye!

I'm happy and so does everyone.

2010-07-01T15:44:00.000+08:00

I'm back to my updating! Ok, I admit i'm lazy and secondly, i don't have much readers for my blog. It's more like recording of my life and for myself to read...=)
Thanks Jieyi for the nice watch! I really like it a lot.. Where are my other presents? *greedy*

Alright, let see when is the last update.. two weeks nv update le...Alright, these two weeks have quite a no. of events.. so let me list them first.

Went out with Bao Bei on Friday(18/6/10), Went to have lunch at Astons, followed by K-box@cineleisure, then movie treat by SJ..Bao Bei brought pink rose for me.=) Hehe, Lightbulb for 3hrs..SJ is really sweet to Bao Bei.. SJ let me think of Michael..But it's different case for now... Single and happy!

Went out on Sat&Sun with my aunt..Just walk around and buy some stuffs.No much actually, it's just like a catch-up session with her&my cousin.

Monday(21/6): Went out with Eugene and he gave me my present..XD Blue Domo Shirt& Green GingerBread Man shirt. The gingerbread man look like the one in oven break..hehe.. had Dinner at KFC followed by 2 pints of ice-cream@ B&J. I'm a big eater!

Wed(23/6): Went back to sch to unpack the boxes.. I was super duper dreached thanks to the big rain and the lousy drainage system in the new campus...The new campus is super duper cold! I think my jacket is a need for all my lessons..

Thursday(24/6): Went back for a get to know the new campus tour. The new campus is big. But food wise, have lots of variety but is the food court price..So i may have problems getting myself to eat. So, Food court price food= diet for me and 7-11.. After that, 7 of us went to have buffet at Furma riverfront hotel.. Buffet was good.. Love the fish and deserts..=) Thank Miss Lee for the treat!

Sat (26/6): Went for JCI appreication dinner at Chairhill Place. It's like a KTV style,Quite fun and enjoy a lot on that day. everyone was beautiful dressed for the event..

This whole week is more like relax week, at home do nothing.. Watch a bit of drama, Read lots of books and magzines.So it's kind of like time of my own. =) Completed quite a no. of books already.

Holidays is ending in another 3 more days and here come the busy life that i want. It's clear coast for me, I'm moving on, I'm not going to wait for him, i won't want to waste my time on something which will never be mine. So move on! When holidays ends, I'll have to push myself to start revision so i won't feel lack behind the class.=)

My Wishlist& U

2010-06-13T18:12:00.001+08:00

Alright! I better update now.. If not i'll be so inactive to blog... These few weeks, my clique& I are quite busy with school and external event.Had mock CA and acutal CA for POM. Help out in JCI Event from 3june till 6june.. It's tiring,but the experience is priceless! Seen so many people around asia and the National Parties are real fun! It's a rare chance for me to help out in such a big event and i have learnt a lot from the event and the managing of the big events.. Having the right person in the right position is very important..=)

The last week of school was quite alright for me.. Manage to visit the new campus.. I like the concept of the new campus and the beautiful windows too!Went to help to decorate the booth for Torch Relay on thurs and Yes, Thurs 10/06/ is my birthday. It's kind of too busy to celebrate cos of the torch relay and therefore din't celebrate much. Although i'm reaching the big 2 next year, I'm grateful for being alive for the past 18 years. Willi and Vincent gave me a surprise, Thank you so much.=) It's become a habit for my generation to celebrate birthdays when the actual ones had past. Help out in Torch relay on behalf of ETP.. It's another experience that i learnt, Good management skills is important no matter in which part of any jobs. Communication among humans too..

Friends had be asking me about my wishlist, decided to Break them up into 2 caterigoies
Non-Material Needs

Good GPA for SEM 3
Everyone who love me and dotes me, Which include myself to stay happy, Healthy.
Be more self-discipline and save more money for further use.

Material Needs( Updated on 14/06/10)

A new cheap&nice watch.
Funding for Overseas Trip
Funding for Decmember Rains雨季( I don't mind getting an Ang bao from my frens..XD)

2010-05-24T22:38:00.001+08:00

Alright, it's going to be end of may very soon..Which mean June is coming and 1/2 year had been gone! All i can say is time seriously flies too fast that we don't realise!
I MISS JOELLE YEO!wonder when'll she be free to have dinner with me..When i'm not so busy, she is.When I'm busy, she's not. So timing wise is quite bad..
Last week was a fun week with Navy open house and trip to marina&orchard.. Although my legs hurts after that, but i'm happy and contented with the company of my clique.. Or is more like my clique accompany cheeleng la..hehe!

This few weeks, more events are coming up for me&my clique..We'll be busy with outside events and Actual CA which is consider alright compared to last time when i had to handle my O's and School together..

Mock CA coming up on wed,haven't study and yet i'm still here blogging..Alone at home now cos parents n sis went to hosptial to see my bro after his operation. Hope he recover asap!=)

Need to save up more bucks for my upcoming musical in Aug..Die die also must go de! Intend to work during sep sch holiday onwards to earn extra bucks and allowance for graduation trip next year.Going malaysia or Bangkok with clique, Maybe a cruise trip with joelle if possible..=)
Alright, better go and revise for Mock CA. I don't want to fail.. at least pass this mock first!=)

2010-05-15T12:36:00.000+08:00

It's a bad week this week.. Many things starts to happen when the weekends are coming. To be the truth, i almost can't take it. I wanted to cry so badly. I want to find someone to talk to, to hear me rant. I didn't manage to. Thursday was really a super no-mood n moody day for me and some others. For the past two days, i was wondering if going to school is the right thing for me to do or not.. My stress level is rising. And i know, I may burst out like him one day. I need a place for me to shout, i need a place for me to relax n calm myself down.

Jieyi brought an Itouch! haha, which mean i get to play the games inside! Start to play Unblock me and it's so fun! Kind of addicted to it ardy.. hehe..Weekend will not be a rest day for me, at least not this weekend. Need to work on projects and upcoming CA. Elieen, JIAYOUS! YOU CAN DO IT DE!

2010-05-03T23:15:00.003+08:00

If Working help to lessen the pain, I'll do so.
If Throwing myself into a pool of work allows me to feel better, I'll do so.
If Traveling allow me to go away and take a break from where I am, I'll do so.
It Just wasn't meant to be.. We are just not meant to be for each other. It's not that i'm not willing to wait. It's just hard for me to invade or even have a place for where she is standing now...
Going into 19, I won't want to wait for something which may not be worth waiting for now at least.
I learn to love, what about you? Have you learn how to love?

2010-04-27T14:17:00.002+08:00

Friends, they are wonderful people who touches lives of each other. Some become best friends and they know each other the most.. Being best friends is not something that last forever...Relationship, regardless of friendship, BGR and Family..We need to maintain them, Can't take things which are alright now for granted.

Some Friendship can be long-lasting, some can be unhappy&short.But those are the ones which make me feel unforgetable..Although it's short, but the short time we spent tgt is smth which i used to think back every now n then. It's like a reminder to tell myself not to take things for granted.. At least for now, I'm not so paronid, i make sure i treasure things, relationship around me and maybe it's the right choose for going seperate ways..But i'll not forget the days we had as best friends...=)

原来感情是如此的讽刺。
朋友变成情人，情人变回朋友或敌人。
从陌路人变成朋友，然后变成好朋友。但是好朋友后来变成了陌路人，从此以后再也不联络了。
是上天注定的吗？让我遇见你，可是到后来结局和想象中完全不一样。。遇见是美丽，分开是伤痛的。我不后悔在我的生命遇见了你，因为我们曾经有过一段快乐的日子。。
谢谢你曾出现在我的人生里，我的人生因为你的出现多了几分色彩，当我回头望的时候，我可以开心的对自己说“我没有后悔认识你”。

2010-04-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

我想放手，可是我不舍得放手。。

2010-04-14T23:20:00.002+08:00

Since the school starts, i'm not as happy as i thought.( This is not an emo post ok!)
Only 3 days since start of the new school term, so many things had happened... Which make me and others so unhappy and sad about it.. Thank to joelle for sparing sometime to hear me rant.. if not i'll still be angry n upset by now..I meant what i said ystd, and i'll do it..

It's going to be 2nd year for him soon..suppose to be the first year for me, but i guess i din't make my promise come true and go to sp.. But, i'll go poly by nxt year..which mean you will so called become my senior! XD..i miss playing your Ipod Touch, i miss sitting beside you doing practially nothing.. I hope you can be happy and more out-going =)请你要快乐，要幸福。。

The new time-table is like office hours to me! earliest starts at 8, latest ends at 5. And my friday ends at 4, not 1 anymore! URG! think have to suffer through the hot afternoon in a classroom..Have to endure for another 5mth plus before the end of sem and 1mths plus before moving into CCK campus... JIAYOUS!

And, i seriously love all of you! I don't nid to rank or say out. you all should know who you are. From secondary school friends, teachers and current school good friends and certain teachers..
I LOVE YOU!!!!!

2010-04-11T21:34:00.004+08:00

Hey! Back to update! Let me update about the weekends=) Friday, i went out with joelle! It's been a long time since i last went out with her. She's busy with her school, that's why we can't go out often.. I'm so happy to just go out with her and have dinner... Chatting during dinner, window-shop..=) Brought her sunflower.. So next time must get her smth else..=) Had korean food and it's quite nice.=) Hope to meet up with her soon. Joelle, JIAYOUS for everything you are doing now, OK! I know you can do it de!

Went out with clique ystd, Suppose to meet at 2pm..But i&waishi were late, poor wendy was waiting for us..So sorry! Had starbucks, suppose to sing k and bowling, but wendy no energy for bowling and all of us forget to bring socks, K-box is ex during weekends, so no k-box too.. went to walk around and sat down at raffles's mac to chat and at the same time, wait for cheeleng to join us for dinner.=) Went to New York, New York! for dinner..Love the candy floss and it's free.. Service there quite good compared to the branch i went in AMK.. Had a very full dinner at new york new york... And we saw 4 challangers who try to finish the super duper big burger and lots of fries within 1hour... Don't think anyone from the 4 challangers manage to complete the whole set cos the serving is wwwwway too big for One person to eat finish..

After dinner, walked to esplanade and listen to some rock music and at the same time, waiting for jieyi to come and find us after her work. Sit outside the performance area and chatting with the clique...Had fun laughing and also talking about daises, "dai si", "Teh Si".. and also some internal jokes..XD Ok.. Time for pictures=)

2010-04-10T11:32:00.004+08:00

Just read some of my past posts on my blog, and i just realise how much i have changed over the years.. from a shy girl to now a someone who love to go out with her clique and her best friends...But my creativity don't seem to come out that often.. and I don't feel Super duper motivated compared to last time. At least now i can say i'm still motivated to move on and be a better person... sch is reopening in 1 more day which means, more things n projects will be coming up! Actually, i want all the urge to post smth for my blog to be back..i guess that'll need some time cos i kind of made myself busy with my brain thinking of some other matters..better go to bed now after a day out with clique=) Shall update later if i have the time to do so.

2010-04-04T00:02:00.004+08:00

Hello! Back to Update! Practically nothing to do at home.. So i start to watch new dramas and exploring html n blog stuffs... Rather than wasting time doing nothing, i rather do stuffs like that to gain more knowledge in different aspect..=)

Results are out..I manage to maintain which is a good thing..Instead of feeling depressed, i should be more motivated for the upcoming sem.When school reopen, I'll be in Year 2..Time really flies so fast! Only 2 more sem left, the upcoming 3rd sem will be the most important to pull up my gpa to enable me to get into a better poly..I must complete at least a poly cert..=] Bored at home and for next week, mum&dad won't be at home for a week...So I&my slibings will be at home alone..I nid to plan for next week..Gonna catch a movie alone again(most probably),feel like going to changi airport or marina barrage, walk around alone or just sit at starbucks n relax.. Will see how things goes...

Gain my health back plan!

2010-03-29T23:58:00.003+08:00

I have decide to lose weight for my health. Really in bad shape now. So have to lose weight to gain my health back..gotten my asthma attack recently due to chewing too much ice and drinking too much orange juices and cold soft drinks.Will start when school reopens...

1)No cold sweet soft drinks. limit:once a month
2)No unhealthy tibits. Limit:twice a month
3)No Fried foods. Limit:twice a month
4)NO fast foods. Limit: once a month
5)Must have breakfast!
6)Fruits intake: 1-2times a day.
7) DO excrises once a day.(leg-lifting/jogging/sprinting/brisk-walk/skipping)

For how long: till i slim down. Ideal Weight: 50kg Starting from:12/4/2010

2010-03-27T23:35:00.003+08:00

It's boring to be at home esp when i'm sick..=(.. I want to recover asap and go out n play.. Stay at home also good at times, cos i can save money mah..so i won't spend my money on things i don't nid... Now watching a Korean drama called Obstetrics and Gynecology Doctors, quite nice i can say, but some medical terms are kind of hard to understand at times.. Friends who know me long enough know that my dream is to be in gynecology, a doctor who specialist in pregnant women and illness related.. but that dream will no longer be able to come true at all... There's so many things i want to do, but time don't seem to allow me to do so.

I love music and learning musical instruments like piano,guitar..And also driving, traveling...They are the few i mention which i want to do, which time don't allow them....For traveling, i think that may come true by nxt year if i work to save up to go places like taiwan, hong kong. =)

Changed my song and my tagboard...Cos too bored at home...

2010-03-25T12:47:00.005+08:00

Thurs..suppose to go out today with _____. but i fell sick..still on the road to recovery.... hope that i can recover real soon, so i can go out and play!XD Gotten good news from my frens who are schooling in sp... So happy for them as they gotten good results! Esp eugene, he manage to get quite good GPA for this sem compared to last sem! GRATS! Yuan bin also, 3.8 wor! that's high for a business course... It's good to hear from frens who manage to get good results.. Cos i din't do well this sem, put in my best effort, but did not deliver the results i wanted..Able to maintain, which mean nxt sem i have to work very very hard to pull up my GPA..

Went out last sat with clique, had breakfast/lunch/dinner at xin wang@marina square.. Sat over there for 2hr and the amt of food we ate was pretty huge..5 girls and a table full of drinks n food..After that we went to play at arcade and walked to esplanade..They seem to be having some event and the whole atmosphere around esplanade was great.. =) will be going there real soon for one of the musical..

Sharing of long due photos..

2010-03-19T21:40:00.002+08:00

Back to updating..2weeks&1day never update.. So i should update now..

Went to study outside with clique on the 7th mar...I can only say is a eating session..not a studying session although the next day is WTB exam..was really fun with them...many inside-jokes!XD

Following were exam days..=) WTB, SVE, HRA..And i'm free after that! After the last paper, slacked with clique@hub..

had a class chalet recently, had a great time with my classmates n cliques=) It;s like a gathering, bonding session..And a small farewell for aunty jo.. =) Won't go into details..
Holidays are here, used to be looking forward,but now hope school reopen..I need sometime to cool myself down, to think properly and to get things back on track...
One more year to go...JIAYOUS!

2010-03-04T23:18:00.003+08:00

I make a desiscion today. I decide to hold on for another year, so to give you n myself a chance to see if we can be together or not. It's not up to me to decide, i just hope you can see clearly that i'm always there for you.. As time pass, my heart will grow together with the likeness in you. If after one year, nothing else happens, I'll leave for good.. It's hard for me to do so, cos i know you'll still be in my msn, my contacts.. And It'll be so hard for me to avoid talking to you. If what you told me will come true, i'll give my blessings. I really will. I sound like i'm a person who will give up easily, but maybe for this case, i want to walk toward you but there a door right in front of your heart, only she have the key to it. I'm not granted the key to your heart yet, but i hope i'll get the key from her soon..
I feel my heart ache everytime i see her, have to smile and say hi to her. It's hard for me, But i did it everytime. So i have to be strong..For now at least...

2010-03-01T23:51:00.002+08:00

能认识你，是一种缘分，
能守在你身边，也是一种幸福。
不能和你在一起，我认了。
你离不开她。
就算我得到你的人，我也得不到你的心。
你的心永远不回在我这里。

2010-02-24T01:21:00.003+08:00

Post no. 201

Late at night, and i'm blogging and not studying for my WTB mock exam! Hahaha, feeling like blogging, tat's why..=) I heng heng pass my sve test and i nv studied..The night before, I, wendy,waishi and Jayjay were chatting on msn till 3plus going to 4am..so We did not revise at all..so I say is heng heng de..

Later will be WTB mock exam, must pass if not have to retake...So going to study after i blog..RP now shd be on holiday, which is like SO GOOD! But i know other polys still having exams, like SP..Eugene is in SP and now having exams..Good luck to all the people who are having their exams and Score with flying colours! I'm also having my major exams in around 1wks time and i have to race against time to complete a lot of things.. Presentation, revisions... But I just have to endure and i have other 1mth holiday, SO JIAYOU!

I know my darling, Joelle is having a hard time catching up and coping with your school work. This is delicated to her: Joelle, Please do not give up. You have come this far and i know it's not easy, you manage to prove to your parents regarding your ability in all-round and i know it's very tough for you to balance so many things at once.. Do hang on for awhile more, just have to endure for around 8mths and you will be free from studies. Rmb he's there to help you ok. Don't feel guilty when he helps you cos i know he's wiling to help you and he won't feel it's a waste of time de! Just a few mths more and by the end of the year, when your A's is done, we go clubbing ok, ask him to bring us go!XD I went the longer route, i thought of giving up before, but i still went on till now, and i know i'm going to reach my goals in 1 1/2yrs time. I din't give up, you shdn't give up also ok! Rmb my 24/7 ok=)

Do i have the chance and the courage to fight for my own happiness? I don't want to make the same mistake again, like what i did last time to my ex..I don't want to confess to you first, i'm afraid of getting hurt, afraid that unable to be friends again if we decided to go separte ways.. I rather remain the current status..at least, i can see you, chat with you and i can like you in my heart. Unless i tell you, you won't know..I'm foolish right? I once have the urge to confess to you, but i control myself from doing so...I think the feeling is getting stronger and stronger as days grows by.. Don't ask me what i like about you, cos i like everything about you.

2010-02-21T13:13:00.003+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday to everyone! ystd was 人日,which is everyone's birthday! Also also my mummy's birthday! Happy Belated Birthday to my dearest mummy!
Had a great time during CNY...Go facebook see the pics then u'll know..=) Manage to visit RWS and i can say is very beautiful! Only lack of the cold air in genting, if not it will be perfect!
Only during Chinese New Year, i can do anything i want from my parents! So i always look forward to CNY=) And...

HAPPY 200th Post!

I think i like you,but what can i do? You have ur girl in mind, all i can is just look at you, give you my blessing, hope you can be with her. I want to be with you, but i don't think i'll stand a chance...you are a great guy, with wonderful personality.=)

2010-02-10T22:05:00.002+08:00

I saw people in blue uniform today.. I miss times when i'm in blue uniform,going shopping in it, being proud of the blue uniform.. time past so fast and I'm reaching my big two in a few years time,going into second year, and coming to end of sem 2...Mock exams are round the corner and have to start to prepare. CNY is coming in around 3 day's time and I'm kind of half looking forward, half not looking forward to. Cos CNY have ang-baos, but after the cny holidays, i have 3 mock exams and i have to pass them no matter what... Alright i better go and study for my mock exams..

2010-01-31T23:17:00.002+08:00

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Haha...Just trying out smth new..Alright this week was a very busy week, with jan intake orientation to be busy with, some urgent matters to attend and also more commitments.

Something happen to my friend's dad and he's no longer with her anymore.. I just want to tell her: Please be strong.If you need a shoulder to cry out, to lean on, a pair of listening ears or more than that, we are all here for you. You are never not alone. He will be with lord and he will be watching you, protecting you. Do him proud ok..

This is the first time i came across with this and i manage to realise how much my family and friends means to me.. All of them are priceless, Fate brings us together as my mum,dad,slibings,my friends..Therefore, they are all priceless.. I tell myself to see things broadly, to love all of them even more be'cos we will never know when we'll leave the world, so we should treat everyday as if it's our last day. Be grateful for what i am having now, wonderful and supportive friends and family.

Went out to shop for CNY clothes with family on sat n sun. Went to Albert street n Bugis on sat, J.P on sun. Dad treated me&my slibings Fish&Co.. had best fish and chips in town.. Decided to treat them on 19feb for their belated anniversary and also mum's birthday. thinking of Chinese cuisine cos my dad is a very chinese culture person, so only chinese food suits him. Mum is alright with western and other cuisine.

Alright, Better go and get my beauty sleep now..Good night Peeps!
Tomorrow will be a fun day! Rmb our date!

2010-01-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

Although I'm just a small Exco member, But I'm happy to announce that I'm the manager of Publicity! Thanks for choosing me, at least i feel i'm still useful in one way or another. I'll do my best to bring ETP to a greater height=) Congrats to Wendy! She's AGM for publicity and events.=)
Very Happy that Those who went for the interview got in the Exco..very proud of all of you!

Ystd, Had a video critic test and school ends quite early. Went to Imm to have lunch and decided to play bowling at chervons. Kind of addicted to bowling somehow or rather after the friday game. Didn't perform well for ystd's game..was the last..Must start to train or smth i don't want to be the last...=( But ystd was really fun! Having anothe bowling game on upcoming monday@ CDC.

Must thanks JJ now! Cos he manage to help me clear one item on my wishlist. Thank you so much! Shall give you smth nice and have personal touch on your birthday!

2010-01-15T10:20:00.002+08:00

Alright, I shall update now in school... Practially, I'm busy with my school stuffs and projects.. From scripts to case study..URG! time doesn't seem enough..Wanted to go back to CSS and visit t'cher de. But i still have a lot of undone stuffs waiting for me.

Nothing much to update actually.. Sometime, I really wonder what I have been doing and thinking about..

I used to have dreams to hold on, like getting into biomedical courses, becoming a t'cher, Business woman. But for now, I feel that my dream are no longer there with me, and i'm kind of lost on what to do.. I hate to feel lost, i want someone to guide me along, but i just don't want to bother people when they are also very busy..I'm in the business course now, but i'm not sure if i'm good in it or not. I don't think i have the guts to have a business.. I'm just a person who want a normal life, earning around 2000 every month.. Last time, getting married is the second in line.. But now, it doesn't matter if i get married or not.. cos i'm happy for now.. Without a guy. I do envy couples, but i know i have to wait for mine to come. Fate will decide on who i'll marry.

2010-01-12T23:09:00.002+08:00

Alright.. I manage to pass my O's overall, L1R4=25.. but i don't have the intention to go to poly. My classmates are like,"huh!, then why you retake?" Well I retake cos i want a nicer cert,and better numbers on my cert..So I'm going to poly by the longer way.=) So i have to work hard from now onwards. Finally i set my 2010 resolutions and i'm going to make sure i do all of them..

2010-01-12T00:39:00.002+08:00

I'm not crying.. I'm glad and grateful for everything right now. Everything that i'm having. From Friends to studies.Love to friendship. Special big Thanks to people who encourage me and support me. And people who love me all along. I make it through the waves of the sea..And your words to.=)

2010-01-07T00:47:00.002+08:00

I dreamt of you ystd. I'm so scared that the dream may come true. I really don't want the dream to come true. It's just to cruel to you when it become true.My mum woke me up and the dream was gone. If that dream really come true, I'll be so lost n starts to cry. Ardy, Now i feel like crying. I cannot imagine when you are not around anymore, what will i become.

Please, don't let my dream come true.. Please..

2009-12-31T12:36:00.001+08:00

Today is the last day of 2009! Which mean, by 12am tonight, will be the first day of 2010! With a new year, which means a new start for me.. although some things will remain unchange, but i will gladly accept any changes and challenges given to me!=)

Going outside to countdown later, but no idea where yet..However, I wanna wish everyone a Happy New Year in Advance! Enjoy the great day ahead!=)

2009-12-30T23:52:00.005+08:00

Decided to blog in ur fave colour..=) Today i went out with _____. went to have dinner at Loving hut at suntec and I'm glad you like the food there=) Went to walk around and we go to esplanade for the ice-cream@ Haagen Daz..ordered 3 scoops with the flavours, Mid-night cookies, Dark Chocolate Orange and Strawberry. Mid-night cookies is very nice! Shall bring _____ go daily scoop for ice-cream cos both our schools are near the place. =) then went to the roof of esplanade, chat awhile then he went to meet his aunt at far east. And we bid goodbye from there.. thanks for the wonderful time=)
Just Rmb smth funny,you always thought that esplanade is only one..actually there are two..and you just relise it ystd!Hahaha..

Pictures time!

2009-12-30T01:12:00.001+08:00

YEAH! I manage to call to Yes933 programme! And Denise pick up my call! Thank you for making my day!=)

2009-12-26T01:09:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas!

Back from a small gathering and went out with joelle and ____. Had a fun n great day today. Went to ION today, always so many people in town, no matter rain or shine.Went window shopping actually, cos i'm too broke to get the things i want..Nvm, CNY is coming le, which mean hongbao from parents!XDReally envy and happy for joelle.=) I hope i can find mine too, but maybe not so soon.10yrs down the road, who know wat will happen..

After ION, we went to walk at 313@somerset...Everywhere is like having sale! URG! Shall start saving from Jan 2010 to get the things that i wanted for..After that, we went to have ice-cream at Mac..=) Then headed to Shih han's birthday&christmas party. Had a great laugh just now..=)

Every party is a small gathering for us. That's why i love gatherings..Unlike last time, which i hate gatherings and going out..at least now i feel i'm better.. Maybe my thinking is more mature for now at least...Such a long time since we last meet up n chat, I guess my life is much better w/o you..At least i feel happy now.=)

Another 5 more days to 2010..Which mean a new year coming, with tough descions to make,Challenges coming up.. I just want to have a good year ahead..=) Gonna meet up with ___ on 30dec, the second last day of 2009.. Let's take pic and make my memories towards you a more beautiful one. I may have one request, i really hope you can say yes, 让我弥补我的遗憾。

Really love the new song sing by JJ Lin, esp this sentence, 两个人手一牵，连命运都改变。
This is pretty true..=)

2009-12-22T00:51:00.005+08:00

Well! I'm just too lazy to update my blog..XD

Alright.. A lot of stuffs happen.. From KL trip to School..And Watching Korean drama 'IRIS' and falling in love with it.

Let me start from the KL trip..went there from 30-nov to 4dec. And Quite fun,had lots of fun with my cousins.XD Just that can't play the outdoor theme park at genting, That's quite a disspointment for me..So, I wanna go there again real soon. maybe June 2010..=) Went quite a no. of places, facebook for pics..Just some pics to share...

After this, is just mainly school..Just feel very slack in school for my case..Kind of lazy to do certain things, Just feel that I'm not as enthu as last time..I shall buck up now.. So i can earn my way to my own future..=)So now have to chiong for my commitments at least..=)

Had a treat from my HRA module t'cher at pizza hut.. Must really thank her..=) I just relise, the t'chers i met for now are just so nice to everyone and me.. From Sec sch till now, i met so many wonderful t'chers.And i'm really grateful for that, at least i know i won't lose hope for now..=)

After the treat, my clique went to have a drinking session n also short shopping trip..=) Quite a fun time actually..reach home around 2am..which is my latest timing for now..My parents are strict on me, so i will go home early..

Currently, I'm just so crazy in love with the korean drama 'IRIS'..It's damm nice, must watch drama.. Cos from a person who like to watch drama like me, telling that the drama is damm nice, which means it will nv disspoint you at all..=) Go catch it althought the ending might not be smth you want. I know the reason for the ending but i won't say it till my frens watches it..=) Really love seung hee n hyun jun..=)

Time really flies so fast, 2009 is going to end ardy, and here comes 2010.. for me, one yr had passed and the pain of failure nv seems to fade..my skills are getting better, to hide it up, thinking that time will heal them..But in my case, it doesn't seems to be..I can't forgive myself for the failure, i just can't walk out from it..Maybe, i can walk out when i get my results again nxt yr, at least, I can comfort myself with that.. I miss the beautiful times i spent in CSS with my friends and t'chers, the times when you are at least by my side, able to look at you from afar..It's been a year, since i really look at you from afar..And we are going to meet up soon, which is at least smth for me to look forward..

Pardon my for my post, Cos it's mid-night when i type this post, therefore will be more emotional as i'm a person who will be more emontional at night.

2009-11-21T00:28:00.003+08:00

Din't go to sch today, Was too sick to go.. Feel dizzy the moment i step out of my bed.So stay in bed for the whole day till just now.. have to study for all upcoming testes and do well in all of them. Kind of weak now, just a short update will do.. Won't be in SG on sat n sun, going to m'sia.Will have to try to burn mid-night oil for studying upcoming testes.

Weather nowdays are so unpredictable, sunshine in the mrng but heavy rain during noon&night. Due to the urpredictable weather and also the camp, a lot of people fall sick..My clique, is like all of us fall sick! First start from me, follow by ziling then waishi n wendy.. Jieyi is quite often cos she have some health problems.. So it's sort of like, i'm spreading it to them!. everyone who is sick now, Get well soon ok! And prepare yourself for a Joy of giving Season in town and lots of goodies to eat and share with!=)

To My dearest Joelle:
Hey, my girl! I hope that everything is alright now and Just wanna let you know that, No matter how busy i am, I'll always be there for you.. My phone will be 24/7, just give me a call and i'm all ears to hear you. =) Do take care and stay happy always!.=)
(P.s: All C.S.S ex-students or current students shd go listen to the new sch song! it's so nice!)

Back from Camp in Bintan and Sick=(

2009-11-17T12:38:00.001+08:00

I'm Back! From leadership camp in Bintan! All i can say is very fun and Nice! Seriously, I love my mates and people who encourage and support me during actitives and games!really had a great time there!

It's a 3day2night camp and the place we stayed was very basic, with just mattressess and small fan and toilet.. Really have to thanks to gentlemen whom change room with me and my dears, if not we'll have to stay in "open space"bunk..=) First day we did rock climbing follow by climbing of coconut tree.. It's tough and fun, cos i din't ever thought of climbing to the top of the rock wall and i did it~.=) Coconut i did half-way cos i was too tired to climb till the top..

2nd day, We did a lot of stuffs, from hiking to boom-netting! Hiking is very tiring, have to go up the hill and then down, which is very tough for me cos i have diffculty breathing when reaching the top, luckily my teammates cheer up and i manage to make it to the top! Boom-netting was scary! Cos i have to jump from second floor to the sea! I was like tearing..But i still manage to overcome my fear and jump down!

Alright, i know i'm very long-winded, and now just one pic for laugh!=) Super ungalm pic! I think other than my ITE mates, my sec sch mates don't even see me so unglam b4!

Bintan Leadership Camp

2009-11-12T00:08:00.002+08:00

Hey! I'm Back! From all the stress from O's! O's is finally over and i shall worry when the results come. And now, I shd enjoy awhile B4 everything starts again! Still have Exams in Sch, Which is bad bad for me.But I can do it de! JYJY!Pretty Lag behind for school work, so must catch up! after catching up, shd be a no problem already!

Going for a leadership camp overseas, and will be back by sat noon. Was chating with eugene just now, And he actually encourage me to be braver and have more confident in myself. Quite suprising for me.Cos last time is i always tell her to have more confident and now it's his's turn to do so! Saving money for overseas trip either with sch or mum.. Keep Telling her that i wanna go shanghai badly nxt year.And also getting either a branded wallet or Burberry bag! Anybody wanna fund me? haha

Alright, better get some sleep if not i'll be late for tml le!.

2009-10-30T10:09:00.001+08:00

Yeah! I'm now in sch! Ok, for a day only. Still have papers on mon-wed. After that is like semi-holiday! Not really semi-holiday, is like have to chiong for my modules as Class tests is coming le.
English for this year is pretty alright expect for Letter-writing! Math is also ok, just that i lost marks due to careless and unable to think during the exams! What done can't be undone.
Papers Left: Mon- Social Studies, Chem(noon) Tue-History,Wed-Physic. After that have to go to school. MIA from school for around 2 weeks le! Have to catch up with lots of work in school. ESP Writing for business module.. I hope i can catch up and get my Ideal GPA.
3more days to Joelle's A'level Chinese. Do well ok! And Get well soon! Everytime you have exams nearing you, you will fall sick which is a bad thing. So Pls get well and do well! And i Know he'll be there for you!XD

Bro will be getting his results later and I hope he can do well in his studies. At least dun be like me.. However he shd also stop his gamaing! Haha!
Now is exams week for me, but i'm still watching drama! They are just too hard to resist! Love Charmine Sheh and Cheng Hao so much! So good in their acting! Want to watch born rich, but no time to do so!
alright, better get going. take care peeps!

2009-10-21T00:18:00.002+08:00

When i need you the most, you are not there for me. Why? Why? it's the impt time now and yet, you dun reply my msg, my calls. is either you are too busy for me or you just dun bother.
Maybe is i think too much le. But i guess i'm under too much stress, which will make me have big mood swings for the impt time now.
I hope i can control my mood swings n dun think too much.!

2009-10-11T19:40:00.003+08:00

Ystd( i can't rmb who) someone ask me: you not embarrass that you are retaking your O's level with the current sce5s?. What i replied the person: Well, no, cos different people have longer route toward their dream n goals..
I guess the person who asked me have a bit of looking down on me, but i won't be easily defeated! Ystd went for linda's party and it's like a small sec5 gathering.. Current sec5s also went. I guess that's why the person asked me that question... Ystd was fun but joelle have to leave early..Stayed till 10plus n left for home..

2009-09-23T23:11:00.002+08:00

O,well, did almost nothing about studies.. Cos spent almost the whole day doing research on free n easy trips like hong kong and other places..I seriously want to travel so much, to my fave countries then slowly get to explore the world going to beautiful places like Bath, Venice, Dubai.
Din't follow my plans today.so Die Die have to follow for tml. Better get going to listen to my radio.. Here i come aunty lucy!

2009-09-20T01:19:00.005+08:00

Hello! Back to updates for blogger..=) Quite a lot of happening for the past 2weeks.. Went for Comex Show and Brought myself a portable hard drive and a new ear-piece..=) And started studying but still like lazy wor! So Dead! Gotten my laptop back and had be watching drama D.I.E Again..this week onwards, i have nothing to watch anymore cos the drama ends on sat,which mean i can study wholeheartedly..=)

Really love this day, 20-09-2009..Nice date right..haha people ask me buy 4d and toto, hard to buy in la!=p Alright pictures now=)

Happy Birthday in Advance,My Dear!

2009-09-08T00:49:00.002+08:00

alright..blogger is back to normal for me again..but will seriously put into consideration if i shd countine using or not.. =)
Exams Exams Exams! later is the last paper le! which mean holidays, but i dun get the holiday mood..cos i have O's to study!.URG, kind of wondering if i made the wrng choice of retaking.. no time n too late to regret!
Feel like pon camp to watch live wedding of fann wong on tv on 29 sep...

2009-09-04T11:54:00.001+08:00

May be Using LJ..still under testing for now.. So won't update blogger so often..

2009-09-02T14:23:00.002+08:00

Hello! I'm back updating! House com n my laptop dies on me!My netbook is super duper lag! so have to update in school.. Went back to Css on monday. Concert was not good at all compare to the previous years..so was thinking if i shd advice my sis to go Css or not.. But was very happy cos i get to see so many classmates and friends. Baked muffins for my dearest t'chers who i love the most. Hope they like it.=)Gotten hugs from t'chers, chat with friends and gossip with ______ . Really miss sec sch a lot, the beautiful time we shared, the best time in my life for now!

Went to Vivo after that with whole bunch of people, long bus trip but fun too.=) Met up with linda in vivo and went to have lunch with joelle n linda while the rest went to catch a movie.Went to have lunch at fig&olive. Food waa quite nice, but still love fish&Co the most! after that, went back home to rest..

Ystd was a holiday, and i did nothing at home! which is like... suppose to go out ystd but was too lazy due to the weather...suppose to lie on bed only, in the end , fell asleep.. sianzz..Wasted one day again..but was so happy and excited when clock strike 11pm. Cos my all time fav drama is on tv! Gosh, i thought i won't get to see it again, but i did! drama queen with always be one!

Now is school, practically doing nothing another than surfing net, plurking n blogging.. thought of changing to another place for blog. Cos blogger keep giving me problems...

2009-08-19T23:57:00.002+08:00

I'm Back to update! Alright, i'm too busy n lazy to update. So i shall update now.
09-08-09: Went to Marina barrage with my family to watch fireworks. Marina Barrage is a place which is so great to go with friends and family. One day I will want to go with my friends just to visit and sit at the rooftop and just enjoy the breeze.. The fireworks is really very nice! =) If i was in the flyer, it will be much more better.

10-14 Aug 09: I can't Rmb much what happen in school, but I know one of the lessons my clique laugh like siao cos we were talking about lame/cold jokes.. ^^
15Aug 09: Went for a interview, i can say i did pretty well for the interview. Really had fun talking to people whom i never met before. After that, went back to J.E library to find sis, then went shopping with her for my things which i need to use for something.

16Aug: Went to library for COB Project, suppose to meet Wendy they all 11pm, but i woke up late cos have been watching BOF the previous night.=p Half of the time is like talking crap and wendy have to go back early cos smth happen to her net-book. We also manage to complete our work, which is a good thing.

17Aug: Stayed back in school after school for final preparation for ppt, we feel that we are pretty prepared.

18Aug: Did the presentation for the class. However, it didn't turn out that well as we all thought. But we know that we did our best already! Human learn from mistakes^^ and we will learn from mistakes and improve and not to make the same mistake nxt time round. Release-si me, inner joke..XD!

19Aug: Wendy fall sick and she din't went to school ystd. first few hrs was boring, later in the afternoon, we had fun. haha..ask ziling n waishi what happen...=) have to do my work now.. POA is getting harder and harder and i don't seem to understand it.. have to start from the basic.. So many things coming up, exams, oral! URG! time is not enough!

2009-08-19T00:48:00.002+08:00

Suppose to update long ago, but these few weeks are like no time to do so.. maybe later in the late evening bahx..now is already going to be 1am already. and i'm still feeling very awake and not tired at all. how am i suppose to sleep and wake up for my lessons tml..

2009-08-15T22:18:00.000+08:00

will update tml, cos blogger is siao liao!

2009-08-07T00:15:00.002+08:00

Today is friday, which means a weekend! Which is good and bad for me. Good is i can go window-shop on friday n sat. Bad for me is one week have passed and one week lesser for revision.
Hope the sales turn out well later! S.E JYJY!

During 1 1/2hrs of OFA lesson, 1/2hr i was crying like mad woman in class w/o wailing out or smth... I know tears are precious but i can't seem to control my tears.. But now i'm alright already. Wanted to go back to sch tml, but celebrations ends at 10, whereas my school ends at 1. so i can't go back to school.. But i'll make sure i go back real soon.^^

Told him to msg me to encourage me and told him that i treat him like my bro. Just wonder if i broke his heart or not... I mean i know we aren't meant to be together. But he just seem to be part of my life already. It's like i sort of can't do w/o him..

2009-08-07T00:14:00.001+08:00

不能拥有完美的感情，就不要强求了。也许，不能拥有的感情，在回忆中会更美。

2009-08-06T12:25:00.003+08:00

~~I'm sacred to know what is the answer later. It's like very scary for me, i dun want to know the truth of her Character..~~ Currently in school now..haha=) I think i have to make a tough decsision nxt year. I shdn't let it bother about me now, wait till when times come.

Joelle is Right. ' Sometimes, it's doing things that make you as a whole. It doesn't matter how long you take to complete and get to the unlimate aim. It's what you learn in the process which enable you to progress as a better person.' AND, Do what make you really happy and don't regret it. I Shall keep that in my mind and remind myself about this.

2009-08-05T23:14:00.001+08:00

It's been some time since i last update. Alright, quite a number of things happen during the past weeks..But i dun seems to remember much la. Some of them i can remember was going to K-box with Aunty Jo,Wendy, WaiShi&Ziling. We really had a great time singing the oldies and also the new songs. We do have theme song of our own! Haha..It's a chinese Oldies,^^.

I'm really sick and tired of getting t'chers scolding the class. It's like every week, my class is bound to get one scolding from one of the t'chers who teaches us..I really hope that my Class do know how to think for the sake of their future and also for the T'chers sake.. T'chers are huamans and they do feel sad n stress too so please think for the t'chers too.

I'm in a dilemma..Kind of don't know what to do and how to decided when time comes by..

2009-07-23T21:16:00.003+08:00

Back.=) I'm very tired..tired of quite a number of things..And the guilt is back, it's always deep down my heart..just that i keep compressing it...And i think things will go out of hand soon..
You may be wondering what is the guilt, i dun mind say it out.. It's the guilt towards my T'chers in sec school. It's b'cos of my O'level...I know all the logical things about the whole guilt thing, but i just can't put it down.. It's just me.when i know people pin hopes on me, and yet they see nothing in return in me.. These few days my mood swings are really big..Haix..

Have to do my revision le..take care everyone.I know that i can make it through the whole process.

2009-07-21T12:14:00.002+08:00

Yeah, i'm back..Now i'm in school, sufing the net and finding some culture stuffs related to my COB.Ystd, Went to imm to see TVB star tour in singapore and i'm very very happy cos i'm 1 of the 100 whom manage to get the Autographed pictures! And I manage to shake hands with 3 of them. Esp laughing Kor and Cheng Hao! Cheng Hao is super cute and love to act in front of all of us! Now other that Raymond, he's No.2 in my heart! Although i'm very tired after all the standing and shouting when i reached home, I'm very contented and happy and i'll sure go again next year.

From today onwards, i'll only be online from 10.30p.m- 11.30p.m as i have ask my mum to keep my laptop from me b'cos i want to have a real and good start for everything and also sleep early too so that i won't be late for my classes again, i won't want to get bar from sep's exam.I have to =do my best and focus on my goals which i want to achieve within this year..^^When i reach home today after school, i have to start my half-mugging life already.. I guess i have to go into full mugging life very soon.. Alright, have to go now.
Loves>3333

2009-07-19T22:42:00.003+08:00

Alright, I guess i'll have monday blues in the mrng and excitement in the evening!...Haha..dun ask me why, will tell u all more after monday..

Ystd went for a photo shoot with joelle. It's pretty fun actually and i get to go into a studio. I was pretty scare at first but when i get myself into the suitation, i'm alright le..I may be on a taiwan trip, my dad say ok so now is up to the princpal to decied if he wanna let us go or not...And one more thing abt me, When i wear heels and hear the 'sound' of my heels, i'll feel confident..
Days are pretty alright for me, just that i find myself not hard working enough for almost everything. Not hardworking enough for studying and i feel that i'm just talk and no actions at all.. So from 20/07/2009, I'll mug and dun go online till 10.30 pm, and study till 12am everyday at least.So today is my last freedom day, other than the upcoming yet comfirm taiwan trip and joelle's b'dae party, i won't give myself break, rest unless i feel i need one BADLY. I just wasted too much time away already so i need and should cherish the remaining time i had left.
Elieen,JYJY!

Taiwan~~~

2009-07-17T10:34:00.002+08:00

Back Back!.. It's friday, which mean weekends.This weekend i seem to have a lot of programmes lining up...Sunday, another batch of TVB artises are coming to SG for their TVB world tour. So many TVB artises coming, and i'm super happy! But not sure if i'm going..maybe i go on another day...

One of my module t'cher tell My clique that we may have the chance to go taiwan,taipei during our hoildays in sep. Which is a good n bad news for me..Cos I always wanna go out of Singapore with friends and to relax my mind and soul. Bad news is when i come back is exactly 1mth b4 O'level..So i'm thinking if i shd go or not..now is 60/40..So i think by tonight, i'll know the answer.. but also must let the principal approve, if he dun approve, then we also can't go.'Special THANKS to H1N1 lo'..If no H1N1 then we can go dun nid the principal approve.

Sometimes, I do wonder if i really need a break from the hectic and stressful life in singapore..I mean everyone do have stress and different people handle stress differently, like some people eat chocolate to de-stress.For me, I think watching tv, having overseas short-trips help me to de-stress..Or listening some good and nice music.. Singapore is stressful, but can be relax at times..I like sitting at Cafes, reading book, enjoying a nice coffee. That can be my de-stress method...alright have to do my work already. Take care people.

2009-07-12T13:42:00.005+08:00

UPDATES UPDATES!
Friday 10/7/09-As mention in my previous post.Pictures.
Sat 11/7/09- Went to Raymond Lam's Autograph Session. It's at J.P..He is really very very shuai and cute too.=) Pictures all at my FB. And while was waiting for him for the autograph session,I make a new friend, She's Stella, a hong konger and she's a very nice person.=)
Althought Raymond is late for the session, the wait is worthwhile for me.Few pictures to share.

I'm pretty Scared for Tml...Hope All of us can do well tml! JYJY!=)

2009-07-11T08:39:00.002+08:00

Hello! Today, I may have two updates.Now is 8.40, will be my first update. Later at night will be my second update.Quite a Number of things happened during the past few days. I cried over it, i blame her, i push all the fault to her, But what done can't be undone anymore.So i will move on. with the memories and pictures in my heart.

Went out with my dear(joelle) ystd, We went to eat the korean food at concorde hotel food court. and it's nice. She wanted to treat me like Ding Tai Feng or Bakerinz, but i insist on The korean Food..=P After Eating and chatting in the food court, we headed to...SINGAPORE FLYER! Yeah! My plurk wrote i love singapore flyer and i do. Night sky line in singapore is really really very very nice. and i love it. Whenever i feel down or smth, Singapore flyer is the first place which came to my mind instead of the beaches in singapore.Cos It's more easier to go there rather than going West Coast or East Coast which need driving for the second one. Wait till i learn driving, then i'll drive my friends around in my dad's car. Later going to see Raymond Lam in J.P2 and I'm going to go there early! will update more when i come back at night.

2009-07-09T13:37:00.003+08:00

Ystd post is pretty Random la..Ystd rushed home to catch the Memorial service(final Goodbye) for MJ, It's really heart-breaking for me to see her daughter cry over her lost of her Greatest father.Fans of him cry too. I'm not a fan of his, but i saluate him. He will be King of Pop and never ever be replaced in The music World. May Lord be with him and his children.

Alright, Will be meeting Joelle tml for dinner.I think i want to bring her to go have the korean Cusine at concord hotel foodcourt.. I'm really Craving for it for a long time and i know we can go tml.=) Today school was alright for me, started at 12 ends around 3plus.Was talking crap in lab after school and i guess we are going to sing nxt friday.Haha..can't wait for waishi to break the glass.O.o..haha..have to do Excel stuffs if nt can't catch up with the class.

2009-07-08T14:26:00.000+08:00

Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery but today is a gift, that's why it is called present!=)

XD

2009-07-07T23:31:00.006+08:00

Hey! Just to post the Over-due Pics!

Brought this for my family. Gald that he like it.=)

No matter how i tidy up my table,they'll always
be so messy! Tat's me, Unorganised.

Given By a friend,can say family of mine.
Thanks so much.Thanks for the effort for getting me a
present.(By my constance reminders XD)

Given by JieYi, Waishi, Wendy&Ziling and also the Card.Thanks you
so much for celebrating my B'dae. Loves<333

10mth daniel. I think my life for now is around him=)
*make me sound like i'm his mum, I'm not his mum alright!*Given by Simin.Thanks so much and i like it a lot^^

2009-07-05T00:28:00.002+08:00

I no longer feel that way anymore. I let go, or it's just for once? Time will tell if i no longer feel this way. I believe, we weren't meant for each other. Or our relationship become better, from lover, close friends and lastly, Family. I believe we feel more like family members.Family members is so much better and i like that too. Thanks for ur present, although dun worth much, but i appreciate it.=) and the strap i brought, must keep in good condition hor! if you really want the $128 ear-piece, then i'll buy for ur b'dae present since you are like family member to me

Alright, Last week was so busy like crazy lady. Monday, COB project @ Mac Science centre, Tue i dun remember where i went, wed went out with simin, thurs went for my class gathering n a bit of shopping, friday tuition in mrng, went out with friend in noon and ziling buffet at night, sat went for talk at captial tower and at night matin's birthday party. In summary, the whole week i am going out and buying presents for the july babies! my pocket is still burning with a very big hole! and i seriously need my nxt mth allowance to survive for this mth! But i really enjoyed all the parties n gathering. Make me feel real nice and happy to celebrate b'daes for you all!..But there are still more upcoming for july..URG! why so many july babies! Alright, tml sch reopen. like so sian to go back and also dun noe what'll happen to the class, wonder what'll the desicsion of the Section Head. Hope nth changes..Sch tml starts at 11, so still alright but ends at 5..T.T

Happy Belated birthday to :
29-06-1991= Jasmine Lee
30-06-1991= Pui Fun
3-07-1991=Ziling
4-07-1991=Matin
4-07-1992-Waishi.

2009-06-30T18:41:00.002+08:00

O well! I' din't go for tuition today, cos woke up with an headache. Only 5more days before school reopens, Aiya! Why does holiday and good times pass so fast, I have yet to study for My O's expect for math which i am more active with it.For sci, C.H, EL, i started a bit but still not enough yet. And only 5days left and this 5days, i'll be so so busy, tml will be going out with simin, Thur have class gathering, friday have tuition and Ziling B'dae Buffet at her house, Sat have to attend a seminar and Matin's B'day Party. Sunday is sort of a free day.. So this week is so busy compare to last two weeks.. Haix. I wasted 2wks doing nth to be exact.

Ystd went back to C.s.s to look for My EL T'cher, who is now V.P for C.S.S now, Mrs Anba.. Smth happpen when I'm in General office looking for her.haha..i won't mention la..so funny...Brought her Coke Zero althought it's bad for health but she dun drink coffee so no choice lo.. Will meet her after July 10, when she'll be more free. Now have to do More compre which she had given me and also do my Vocab book..when the Clock strike 12 tonight, 104more days to O'level.Time seriously flies so fast. And i have to work harder for this, and what i really wan to achieve..

2009-06-25T13:05:00.001+08:00

我可以无所谓
寂寞却一直掉眼泪
人类除了擅长颓废做什麽都不对
Oh … I’m not okay

我假装无所谓
才看不到心被拧碎
人在爱情里越残废就会越多安慰
无论有虚伪
无论多虚伪
Lyrics which represent how i feel now.. not the love part..=)

2009-06-24T23:17:00.003+08:00

I'm tired. Tired of everything. Confused, confused whether i made the correct decision. How i wish i can do smth proud for my parents, my t'cher. But seem like i have nothing good or things to make them proud..Maybe is due to the rainy day weather,make my mood also like rainy day. And i wonder, wonder if i can make it big,make it loud or not. I wonder if i can make my parents, my t'chers to be proud of what i have done one day...

2009-06-23T10:53:00.002+08:00

Back to updates. It's already 1 week plus since school holiday started, but practically, i actually did not do much on revsion on my O'level subjects and also my project and homeworks. So starting from today onwards, if you see me as busy or seldom come online. this mean that i'm doing revsion. Had been wasting time since school holiday started.Last sat, mummy wanna do cupcake so i baked cupcakes.din't take much pictures.i dun have the habit of taking pictures when i'm baking..haha So i can't waste more time. just gotten entry proof for O'level. Compare to last year, this year is worst than last year in terms of the timing for heavy subjects such as math and EL. I regretted that i din't put my very best last year.If i did and don't bother the spamming of mt tagboard, i will pass and go poly already. But what done cannot be undone, so i have to move on and live with the mistake i made. In life, as long as we are human, we do make mistakes. It's just a matter of small or grave mistake. For my case, i find that it's a grave mistake i had made, so i won't not want history to repeat itself.. Alright, i wish all my friends who are having exams in less than a week to do well and put in their best! good luck to all of you! Better run to study now=) and i won't update so often. Take care and Loves >333

2009-06-20T00:22:00.002+08:00

Was Just Chatting online with my dear joelle and was talking about Her further Studies after JC. She may not be in Singapore for further studies, which mean I have another reason to travel! haha..By the time i travel, i will be 21 year old and I'm offical adult! haha.. And I have to start to save up now, to pay a visit to my friends who are studying or working overseas. Air-tickets now days are cheap, but the expenses are high. So start saving for trips Overseas and one more thing, must learn driving in the countries you are in. so that you can bring in around in car! haha=D

2009-06-17T22:58:00.002+08:00

URG!So pissed off with my laptop and my singtel modem.It's like what the hack la! can't connect to the interrnet..Need to bring down my wireless modem to change.So Troublesome.now using my netbook..waiting for my show to starts at 12..Just tidy up my table during noon. And i actually used 3hrs just to tidy my study table! Imgine, if i tidy up my room, i tink i will take one whole day! luckily, my mum help me when i tidy my room..only my table n books i tidy myself cos i;ll know where i put my stuffs... it's already the third day of holiday and i have yet to start anything, not even revision for O's n My course..72hrs in 3days and i spent 26hrs sleeping, and the rest, slacking! I better bucks up, pull up my socks if not i'm so dead. I'm lazy to reply tags in tagboard. so i reply here bahx.=)

Replies
To:Huili:hey i'll cheer up ok.=) U also cheer up and JYJY. dun worry too much for results.you tried ur best already, am i right? =)
To:Joelle: You can give my anything=) even if it's a card.=D Yeah, moving on is the only choice for me. Let's JYJY tgt ok.

2009-06-14T12:35:00.002+08:00

You are gone. Not for good, but for 10days. when you were on your flight, My tears came roll down. I have no idea why..And I find it hard to move on. Move on w/o thinking of you, thinking of how you feel, and how are you doing. And No matter how hard, I'll still try to move on w/o you.We are now different in education, You are better than me.And i know you'll make it into Uni in 3years time.Do well for your sake. To my dearest joelle, hey i know it's hard to move on, but let's try ok=) Even if we can't, at least we tried to move on. And you are going overseas in few years time, Maybe going overseas will stop you from thinking from him and move on.

2009-06-13T20:22:00.010+08:00

Back to Update! Post No.150!
Went to M'sia last Sunday to walk around and had Starbucks! Love Starbucks! Brought Frap Mocha, Frap Vanilla& Green tea Latte. Had Lunch at a Hong Kong Cafe. Pictures Taken in malaysia. From left to right: Green Tea Latte, Frap Mocha, Frap Vanilla

Sis&Me at H.K Cafe <333 Me&Bro <333 style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);">June 10, Is Flag day for YMCA and also My 18th Birthday. Had a Meaningful and Fun B'dae. Went for Flag day for YMCA with wendy, Ziling, Waishi& Jieyi and Hannah. It's like Slack a bit and then chiong for flag day, then Slack..Before that, I was told nt to bring my bag by waishi and i wonder why.. Then later Ziling went back to get my present which is a bag. I was Pretty Surprise.. Thanks for the first Surprise.. Do Flag day till 2.40 and Hannah left with her boyfriend.And i get a free Delxue Chocolate Ice-blend from Macafe.=P So the Rest of Us Set off to Causeway point to have lunch/dinner at Seoul Garden.Bugis one is better..haha..But i had a great time there. They gave me two suprises. One is the cake, another is the Card. It's my Fav.Forever Friends Bears are always my Fav..=D
Won't go details in it. But i thanks for all the Suprises=)

I thanks all of you for all the wishes! <333>
Wendy So CUTE! =D

2009-06-10T00:09:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday 18th to Myself..=)

2009-06-06T12:54:00.003+08:00

Ok, Have Changes for my B'dae Wishlist...
here it goes:
Non-materials Wishes
1.Score 3.4 & above for First year GPA.
2.Do well in upcoming O'level ( 17/20 L1R2B2)
3.Remain Happy Always & hard-working too.
4.People to remember my B'day.Esp Karen.
5.Everyone around me to be happy and healthy.
6.Find my one and only in my life.
7.Lots of Loves to and from everyone whom i Care for.

Materials Wishes(not in any Order)
1.Moonlight Reasonace( HOG 2)
2.Hand-made card which are not expensive
3.Cake with 18 candles.=)
4.Daily Scoops Ice-cream (tub)
5.Backpack/Shoulder Bag
6.Steamboat dinner/lunch
7.Lots of Sweets!

Wishlist shd be done. Going Malaysia late evening, wanna enjoy over there..which means, Starsbucks here i come! woo! in this rate, i'm going to grow fat with all the junk food i eat in school and at home! But it's so nice that i can't stop! ok, lunch time for me!

2009-06-04T12:34:00.004+08:00

I am still not alright for my friend matter but i'll remind myself to help her to get out of where she is now! Elieen JYJY! IT's just so weird, When i feel happy about my current status, Some of my best friends and good friends are toubled by their status. Behind every human, there's different story happening and sometime, as friends, we can only comfort them, give them the care n concern but don't over do it and give them support when they need one..=) Ok, dun talk about this, Change of topic.

Yeah! My Birthday is coming! in 6 more days! and I'm doing Flag day for YMCA on my birthday. Do give your support if you see me around.=)Doing something meaningful on my birthday is good.=) I haven't really thought of a wishlist yet..cos i'm not lack of anything as far as money concern..Thought i everytime say things like, 'Wa, LV/GUCCI/CHANEL Bag very nice sia, i want one!' but i'm just kidding, maybe nxt time i work, i'll get one for myself but not now..I'm still a student! haha..My laptop bag is the most expensive thing i brought with my own money..just a small gathering with friends will do, but my friend circle is pretty small and i'm not close with some of them, so i'm scared that only a few will turn up, i just kick the idea of having a small celebration with friends..

Ok here come my Birthday wishList:

Non-material wishes:

To score well In GPA for Year 1
To do well in Upcoming O'level

To be Happy always and to be a good girl
hope Friends manage to Rmb my B'dae.
Wishes from Friends n Family.

Materials Needs

Heart Of Greed dvd 1&2 or either one.( but it's pretty expensive if nt buying it as a grp)

The Reader/Revolutionary Road Storybook
A new backpack/Shoulder Bag for school.

Having a cake with 18 candles and Birthday song=)
Going for Steamboat/buffet with friends/family.( is AA)
Daily Scoops Ice-cream!
DIY B'dae Card for me!=D I'll sure keep it.

Currently my wishlist is like that, but i believe there'll be changes for the material needs part..So dun nid to be so rush to get me a present. A belated one will do too=D

2009-06-01T23:48:00.003+08:00

Life is like that..one moment, we can BBF, another moment, we are enemies forever..Haix..I just feel so emotional at this moment.. But i know i have already move on, to live my life to the fullest, and I believe my life w/o you all will be so much better and i have prove it already..At least now i know a bunch of People who do 10000 much more better than you all. They are my Teamates,Best Friends. And i know with them around, i don't have to worry abt friendship problems, which i always do last time.And i know, you all always talk behind me, backstab me, take away what is belongs to me and yet pretend nth happen in front of me. Yes, i admited i did fall into it, and i cried, i have mild depression.But i manage to walk out, and My O's, due to smth which is cause by u all, i din't do well,i failed. But i'll do well this time.In My current School and O'level..althought i'll be slower than u all,but i know, i'll do better than all of you! you all hurt me still not enough,still go hurt another person.I'm lost for words about you all.Dun you hurt my friend again, if not i'll be nasty to you all!

Ok,Today school was ok..Had BSE mock test, was pretty tough and mix up the wrng stuffs always.Haix..then after Sch, went coffee bean with teammates n best friends to do ppt for wed..had mocha,after that went to kfc n eat then went back home..dun feel like blogging cos so angry with smth! but i want post one pic. they are the Best friends i mention..They are so much,can say 10000 better than people who talked behind me and pretend nth happen. Loves them LOTS!

2009-05-28T00:10:00.002+08:00

Hey..update time! collected back my lappy n using now..things in sch are getting better for my point..cos i really dislike sch b4 i go n make friends, and now i'm starting to like to go school..Today talked abt food during lunch break! Like Lor mee, Oyster egg, Dumplings etc..and wendy n I have a lot in common for culture in food, no matter is home food or Gu Gu's food...=) Smth happenend to my classmate, hope that she can be strong, he's always there with you and we r all supporting you through the tough period..JYJY

Was so angry n pissed off with some of my classmates abt smth on tue, which i won't mention names or the event, but i know, who r good n who are bad.. I know it very well... It's just so unfair for the minority to give up on smth they like to the majority.. Urg! i hate that!.. And first H1N1 is in SG, which mean, more precautions measure we have to take note...Pls Pls dun like it have an outbreak in SG, if nt everyone will be panic..Below is for my best friends not the BGR thing hor! I like guys, no, is hunk! haha..

To my dearest joelle:
you know what, you are really good in a lot of things and subjects, like H2 maths..That's wat you are good at right? I know how tough is the road to realise your dream, but always keep that in mind, you'll always have me and the others with you alright?you must tell yourself, hey i'm good in math, that's smth i shd be proud of. Dun demoralised yourself with subjects you are nt so good at it.. You are always up to the standard ok..JYJY~ and Believe in yourself ! you can do it!Miss you my dear =)

To: dearest huili
Hey,girl, as long as we are humans, we do make mistakes. We do make wrong judgement by just looking at the person. We grow and get mature by learning from mistakes and i know the mistake you make this time will cost your grade to drop in that module...Always remember it's just a passer-by,a journey which we'll go through during growing up..And i know, You can always strive for the best, and you know what you want. Dun give up and score well for the theory paper for that module, no is all the modules you are taking for this sem..=) JYJY~ i always believe in you!Rant to me as and when u like=)

Missing people

2009-05-26T09:38:00.003+08:00

Missing so many people in my life, From secondary school, till primary sch, Pre-school..
miss the time in pre-school, being pure, naive, childish at the point of time, no worries, no quarrel with friends, times in pre-school is very pure and happy..
Primary school life, was fun, in different ways, having friends to play around, hanging out with my boy classmates, playing all the games which boys normally play..Miss Mrs Yip, Mr Song, Mdam Ong..They are the people who make me happy, give me strength to do well in my exams..and it's time to leave P6, only feeling abit of sadness, cos a better place is waiting for me..which is commonwealth..

Commonwealth, a place full of memories.. Ever since, Primary school, my dream school is commonwealth. I love their uniform, seeing students wearing the uniform allow me to feel a sense of pride in them.. I want to get into the express stream in the first place, but i know my limits, so NA stream is also fine with me.. First day of school really excite me.. And that's how i met my Best friend, Joelle..Inside the same grp for orientation, that's how we become friends..
Being in commonwealth for 5 years, with lots of up n downs, make me become stronger each time..First three years in the J.E premise, that premise is full of my memories and other students memories, all the fun we have over there will never ever be forgetten.. Sec1, still rmb how rebelious i was, making fun of teacher, being disrespect to teacher, nearly get into the principal office.. Luckily, i was given a chance to change..To change for the better, for the future..
She was there to help, she was always there to listen to my worries, was there to cheer me up, was there to help me in my studies..w/o her, i tink i'm already a gone case..She's the person who change my life, Thank you, Ms kirk..I seriously miss you so much..Hope i can meet up with you real soon..

Sec2, a year with loves...My friends already being attached to their guys, and i'm the only one nt attached..Envious, but can't do anything..Helping my friends to solve their problems in relationship, give me a sense of achievement, being able to solve their problems, i'm happy...
Love, yeah, i'm in love too, from 3/8/2005-26/10/2005... Only dated for once, i dun know if that's call courtship or not. but i know, i was lying to myself..Till sec3...

Sec3, till sec3, then i realise how much i actually love him..but it's too late to turn back already..Different class with joelle, life is much more different..But this year, with the carnival, I have another best friend, Olivia and Eugene.. yeah, last time, we called ourselves as [OE]2 cos is Olivia, elieen& eugene..I really had a great time with them during the year..=) My CM, Miss Tian, she's a very nice person, but she look like very strict(yeah she is in marking scheme!), and we are quite afraid of her..But i have to thank her for all the care n concern she have shown me and my classmates..Thank you soon much. Lot of uphappy events happened during this year, but i have already throw them away..The last year in the J.E Campus, pretty sad, cos all my best memories is over here..I remember one incident, my class was at the highest level, 6 so the celling for my classroom is pretty low and so does the fan.. Azman, like to spike his hair. when he stand up, his hair can nearly hit the fan.. So, during one of the classes, he actually stand up and the fan was spinning, and his hair was hit by the fan! We was like, OMG! then, he asked, is my hair messy? Everyone started laughing..

For sec4&5, will post in another post, cos this post is very lenghty!..=)

2009-05-24T00:12:00.002+08:00

Hello! friday was a good day for me..tuition canceled, nt regretting for going a gathering n also celebrate jian hao b'dae at fish n co! I really had fun today! thanks for inviting..we are the noisest bunch of ppl at fish n co..this gathering is like we super long nv meet, can't stop taking pics, chatting abt life and things like that...all pics is at facebook and there's one grp pic very funny..haha.. on Sat, went out with sis to repair my laptop again, hope my laptop dun tio reformat! they say may due to software problem... went to second-hand bookstore to look for O level books..found only a few...pretty limited books left..but still manage to get the books i wan..suppose to go for audition today but din't make it in time..i dun noe if i shd go later.. Have test on monday for POA! wish me luck! =)