要快乐很容易，可是要打从心里的开心和笑一点也不容易©

Sunday, October 28, 2012

@ Sunday, October 28, 2012

想到要放你走，心里是隐隐作痛的。可是如果我们不会有结果，那我也没有必要牢牢抓着。我会过得更好。你是我最放不下的他，这一辈子都不会改变的。但愿你幸福快乐。

世界那么大。或许现在懂我的人只有你，可是我相信，在世界的莫一个角落，我会遇见那个比你更懂我的他。

我会把最美好的回忆，只属于我们的回忆放在心里。我们回不去了，不如向前看，把握身边的幸福与快乐。

再见了，我的六年单恋的他。

Saturday, August 18, 2012

@ Saturday, August 18, 2012

Yeah! Exams are finally over~ I don't blog so often like how I used to. More onto Twitter and WeiBo. One Sem just went by like this.

I still remember telling myself to work hard when the sem starts, but motivation are lost in the way and I feel like so slack..O well~ This is not my best term and neither is my worst term. I know my worst term is over, Yr1Sem1. I need that motivation to get me going, to do or at least maintain my current GPA. I want to work hard, but I am afraid on how my friends will look at me. Like out of sudden become so hard-working, wondering what's the reason behind it. This sem is over, and I don't wish to dwell on it any more. If I happen to be re-taking any modules, then I will have to consider if I should drop and start working or not.

Next sem will be fun I hope, with tep coming in. Although I have like short holidays, but I guess it's fine. As long as I make full use of the upcoming two week holidays. Need to start to plan for future since I know what I like. Marketing and accounting..choose one bah.

Plan for holidays~ Gonna spend my holidays watching drama, spending quality time alone, shopping and dining with family and friends!

Thursday, July 26, 2012

@ Thursday, July 26, 2012

你和我的话语变的不多

　　有时会用力回避和沉默

　　彼此的感受

　　怎会一眼看透

　　是不是都已经倦了

　　一个人默默地走了很久

　　在心里无人知晓的角落

　　深埋的寂寞

　　都是因你复活

　　在最脆弱的时候

　　抬起头有你望着我

　　就算是不能够握紧你的手

　　没关系我可以就这样做最爱你的朋友

　　我不想你难过会是因为我

　　你已经为了我付出你的太多

　　就算是永远都站在你身后

　　没关系我愿意做最爱你的朋友

　　从此后的快乐

　　都是属于我

　　这是我唯一和最后的要求

　　做最爱你的朋友

　　一个人默默地走了很久

　　在心里无人知晓的角落

　　深埋的寂寞

　　都是因你复活

　　在最脆弱的时候

　　抬起头有你望着我

　　就算是不能够握紧你的手

　　没关系我可以就这样做最爱你的朋友

　　我不想你难过会是因为我

　　你已经为了我付出你的太多

　　就算是永远都站在你身后

　　没关系我愿意做最爱你的朋友

　　从此后的快乐

　　都是属于我

　　这是我唯一和最后的要求

　　做最爱你的朋友

Friday, June 22, 2012

@ Friday, June 22, 2012

Finally back with updating=) Yes, Congrats to myself. I am officially 21,an adult. Had a great night with my best loved clique. Don't think they will be reading this, but I really love them so much! Thanks for the blast and everything.<3 Had celebration with different group of people. Eugene, My Poly Clique, really have to thank them for celebrating this great age with me=) Someone whom I don't contact often remembers my birthday, which is totally wonderful cos I thought he totally forgets about it already since the last time we met was like 2 years ago. Can't wait for Joelle to come back from Aust! An Belated birthday celebration from her and chat over lunch like how we used to.^^

Yes, It's like the last 2days of school holidays ends. And I totally wasted my 2 precious week of school holidays by doing nothing and just watching drama. No projects done, no school work done, no revision done.Crap! I seriously hate myself for being like this.Was ranting at Weibo like a mad woman ystd before going for bed. It's like the best place to scold, rant at weibo. Other than 2 friends of mine who uses weibo but not very often, I am the only person using it around me. Which is my total privacy place! Actually this blog is also a place for me to rant too.

I really wonder what's seriously wrong with me, when I know I mix with a bunch of super hard-working and smart people who does their homework, score well in tests and exams. And knowing the fact that I can be like them but I choose not to. Seriously, I need someone to knock my head over and tell me straight at my face that, Hey! You know if you give up certain things, you can achieve what you always want to be. Like give up your TV time for revision, be more focus on things you want and need in the future. I know there is this one person who does that, but He's in the army so he can't tell me that for now at least.

This is what I wrote on Weibo before bed ystd. "To a certain extent, I really hate myself.reason being, I keep procrastinating and I know I have the ability to do well but choose not to give up certain things to achieve that. What the hell is freaking wrong with me?!I am with a bunch of smart friends but not getting influenced by them at all! What is seriously wrong with me?!? I need to find myself back on track fast before I officially says bye to my GPA! its really hard to jump so much in just one sem and I don't want to lose it.Shall set my mindset right again..good in studies=more money in the future..opportunity cost! Rmb that for good ok. Need that constant reminder to myself that I should not neglect studies just because of the petty money I am earning from that pt job."

Now I seriously hope I will be awake, and use the time I have to make full use, to study n revise a lot for upcoming tests and exams so I don't wallow and rant and regret for not making things right.

Back to life that I have now, I had been going out with him quite often, I guess. Like for dinner, chat over etc.He's those kind of blur, not like those type of ideal guy which are able to protect girls, be a real gentlemen when comes to ordering of food. But I like the way how he feels about studies and life. Chances of going into another level of relationship is high, but I won't want to make the move. When you don't know what's the guy thinking, just leave it. Let him do the move. This is what Eugene always tells me to.=) Great friend I have! So glad He's my BFF, if he is my boyfriend, I won't be so open with him like now..

Chocolate from japan and from Jieyi's mum! Thanks so much!

The charm bracelet Clique gotten for me. Thanks so much, I totally in love with it!

Alright, Done with blogging. Time to get back to serious business~ Ciao~

Tuesday, June 05, 2012

@ Tuesday, June 05, 2012

Always love to blog at night. Reason being I can listen to music and wait for family to go on bed. A time where I can express myself. Today is the 5th. An Important day for my besties. Eugene getting enlist at 9.45,So going to miss him =( Joelle's Econs paper later. Really Hope that joelle can do well and get the grades she wants!=) JIAYOUS! Learning Japanese is tough. Should had taken chinese instead. I know most of the terms my friends learnt in Chinese elective. But what's done can't be undone. So just make sure I put in enough efforts to do well and score. Gotten a bad news from EFMA tutor. She's very nice person, she only asked why. Told her the reason and she's ok with it. Keep telling us to work hard during the holidays and move forward, no point looking backwards.

Something really special happened on Sunday..Was pretty dramatic but I was happy.This is the first time I experience smth like this which make my heart goes so fast. But I know where should the limit be.Being rational at times is good. At least I won't go off track and I know the fact that you will never be mine.

Met up with Eugene on Monday=) Movie treat and dinner treat from him!Which is like an advance birthday present from him He damm funny, when he foot the bill, he was like, "Luckily My pay come in already. I don't treat people de. You will be the first and exceptional one" I was laughing, deep down my heart, Those words really touches me. I never regret knowing you. If There's another life, I want you to be my best friend once again. He correct my mistakes, make sure I do certain precautions on certain matters.He always believe in me, Believe that I can do Well. It's just a matter of I want it or not. Although you are stingy sometimes, But who cares! (Y) I still Love him for who he is now!<3

Those who remembers my birthday eventually will. Don't need any reminders. Thinking of what to get for myself. Either a Kate Spade bag or IPad which I wanted it for a long time. 21st is a big number. But Party is just not for me.I rather go out with a bunch of ppl..Celebrate with different grp of friends.Cos We can bond and no awkwardness among ourselves. Shall list down the presents I have in Mind for now. SUBJECT TO CHANGES!~

Non-Material Presents

The people whom I love with my heart to stay healthy and happy
Do better in Studies and Pull up my GPA.
Pass my FTT and get my license asap
Find that Right person soon. (Provided that he confess first and I like him too XD)

Material Presents

Ipad 2/Kate Spade Bag (buy using my own money)
A nice necklace (Parents getting this for me)
A new handbag for me to use since the one I am using is like 2year old.
Glee Season 1-3 DVD Set
Amzon Kindle e-book reader

Currently, That's about it for the list. I just need a simple meal with my friends and hang-out for a wine/beer/whiskey. That will be really sufficient...=D

Monday, May 28, 2012

@ Monday, May 28, 2012

Year 2. Business Management.

Yes, another 1.yrs to go before I wear that graduation gown.. Seeing Sec Sch Friends graduating from Polytechnic make me think about the mistakes I had made in the past. I don't regret, It's part of growing up. If I don't fall, how will I experience to stand up again? So I thank for the challenges which makes me grow stronger, mature.

Celebrated Wendy's 21st Birthday a month ago.Was a blast, and Envy the party that she had. Reason being, I won't have a party like her. My friends are pretty countable. And I will prefer to have a quiet birthday.Dinner with friends a day before my birthday.Have dinner at home on the actual day with family. My birthday wish won't come true, Wanted you to be that someone special. And spend my 21st birthday overseas. Never mind, shall work and Save up enough for next year trip instead.. Glee Season3 officially ends. And I will miss them so much. The whole Glee Cast. They are the ones who kept me going for the past 3years. They graduated from high school in the drama..And I will be like them in 2yrs time.=)

Found out something about my bestie. No matter what, I will like him for who he is. As my Bestie. =) He knows and I know we are best friends who can be too open-minded, frank at times. Nothing will stand in our way. He always believe in me, for what I do and encourage me to stretch beyond my limit. He's going to enlist to army before my birthday, which makes me quite sad..But He don't have a choice to choose. All I can do is catch a nice movie before he enlist. Gonna miss him so much..=(

Although school had started for around 1 month, but I still at the holiday and lazy mode.. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I just feel so lazy and not motivated to push myself further. I want to do better, to score and make sure the dip I get at end of year 3 will have a better GPA.. But I am so unproductive when comes to my free time... I need to find that motivated me back. When I look back on my notes during my ITE days, the pages I highlights, the small notes I make last time and compare what I am doing in Poly now, It's like heaven and hell...Maybe I need a getaway from here, find a place to think and figure out what really motivates me.

Family don't allow me to go overseas alone, and It's really hard to find a companion to go overseas with me..A Guy is not possible due to my parents. The Ladies are busy, Who can I go with? Mum is busy with work.. I just want to go somewhere nearby.. KL, Genting to relax..

Monday, April 09, 2012

@ Monday, April 09, 2012

Post no.245~I am back from my Vacation! Not really vacation, more like 回家走走. A week not in SG is always good! Maybe I just want a break from my hectic life..Had been working for quite often, and I think I will need the money to fund me if I want to go KL in june..5yrs since I last went to KL if I am not mistaken and also genting! Love the Shopping n food in KL, Thinking of asking a few friends along cos my parents don't allow me to go M'sia alone..

Results for this sem is ideal and beyond what I expected..Manage to score well enough to pull up my overall GPA, Quite glad that I don't have TEP for this sem so I can focus on theory-based studies first.I did well, so does my bestie! Congrats on your graduation from poly! NS is another growing up part..By the time you complete your NS, I'll be done for studies! And Enjoying my long holidays before I officially step into the working world.

Went to visit my great-grand parents n grandparents tombs cos it's ching ming..I kind of miss my grandma..Esp when I stayed at my Da Gu house where my grandma used to stay, I remember vaguely that she used to wait for me to visit her when I was small if I travel home with my parents or my dad..She left me when I was 8yrs old..I am turning 21 this yr, times really flies.. Also visited my 6th Aunt house, Although her husband is having a mistress outside which I hate him and will choose to kill him if I don't have to go to jail, I believe my cousins, her kids will do her proud nxt time..I really miss my aunt and she's the one who pamper me a lot when I was young. Her kids are cute cos they are still young..Brought them to shopping mall and brought them some food n KFC..The kids loved it.=)

When I was abt to bid goodbye to my aunt, my eyes turn red and I can't speaks..Friends who knows me well knows that I cry over small things n easily also..I miss my cousins n my aunt alot..And I promise to visit them in 2yrs time..When I graduated from poly n intending to head out for working world,I will want to go back again to visit my Da Gu in Butterworth and 6th Aunt in Alor Setar

Went to Penang n Ipoh..Penang was fun and I will want to go there again soon..=)Had the best roasted duck I ever had in Ipoh and knew how rich some malaysians can be..With 3jointed Terrance houses and 7cars with 3 benz, this is the real riches in m'sia..Went to see a 算命师at ipoh, I don't know how true he tells me, but I know he told me something I will keep in mine, If i want power and money, I will have to lose something.He kinds of tell me a lot of stuffs, like I can get chance to work overseas etc..But he mention twice that I will lose something if I want power n money at the same time..It's quite funny when he explains for me n my parents..But Overall, Quite fun when you hear stuffs about yourself..This trip is a recharged trip from SG and Really love the kampung n the fresh air there..I should learn bike at Kampung nxt time..I seen kids who are around 12 riding motorcycle around the kampung and I really salute them for knowing how to ride at that age.

Around another 1-2wks before school reopens, another sem of chiong-ing and projects..Let this sem run smoothly..Another money spending week when school reopens, buying of notes, getting new pens n foolscap.

Alright, shall head for bed now..=) nights~world