要快乐很容易，可是要打从心里的开心和笑一点也不容易©

Friday, June 22, 2012

@ Friday, June 22, 2012

Finally back with updating=) Yes, Congrats to myself. I am officially 21,an adult. Had a great night with my best loved clique. Don't think they will be reading this, but I really love them so much! Thanks for the blast and everything.<3 Had celebration with different group of people. Eugene, My Poly Clique, really have to thank them for celebrating this great age with me=) Someone whom I don't contact often remembers my birthday, which is totally wonderful cos I thought he totally forgets about it already since the last time we met was like 2 years ago. Can't wait for Joelle to come back from Aust! An Belated birthday celebration from her and chat over lunch like how we used to.^^

Yes, It's like the last 2days of school holidays ends. And I totally wasted my 2 precious week of school holidays by doing nothing and just watching drama. No projects done, no school work done, no revision done.Crap! I seriously hate myself for being like this.Was ranting at Weibo like a mad woman ystd before going for bed. It's like the best place to scold, rant at weibo. Other than 2 friends of mine who uses weibo but not very often, I am the only person using it around me. Which is my total privacy place! Actually this blog is also a place for me to rant too.

I really wonder what's seriously wrong with me, when I know I mix with a bunch of super hard-working and smart people who does their homework, score well in tests and exams. And knowing the fact that I can be like them but I choose not to. Seriously, I need someone to knock my head over and tell me straight at my face that, Hey! You know if you give up certain things, you can achieve what you always want to be. Like give up your TV time for revision, be more focus on things you want and need in the future. I know there is this one person who does that, but He's in the army so he can't tell me that for now at least.

This is what I wrote on Weibo before bed ystd. "To a certain extent, I really hate myself.reason being, I keep procrastinating and I know I have the ability to do well but choose not to give up certain things to achieve that. What the hell is freaking wrong with me?!I am with a bunch of smart friends but not getting influenced by them at all! What is seriously wrong with me?!? I need to find myself back on track fast before I officially says bye to my GPA! its really hard to jump so much in just one sem and I don't want to lose it.Shall set my mindset right again..good in studies=more money in the future..opportunity cost! Rmb that for good ok. Need that constant reminder to myself that I should not neglect studies just because of the petty money I am earning from that pt job."

Now I seriously hope I will be awake, and use the time I have to make full use, to study n revise a lot for upcoming tests and exams so I don't wallow and rant and regret for not making things right.

Back to life that I have now, I had been going out with him quite often, I guess. Like for dinner, chat over etc.He's those kind of blur, not like those type of ideal guy which are able to protect girls, be a real gentlemen when comes to ordering of food. But I like the way how he feels about studies and life. Chances of going into another level of relationship is high, but I won't want to make the move. When you don't know what's the guy thinking, just leave it. Let him do the move. This is what Eugene always tells me to.=) Great friend I have! So glad He's my BFF, if he is my boyfriend, I won't be so open with him like now..

Chocolate from japan and from Jieyi's mum! Thanks so much!

The charm bracelet Clique gotten for me. Thanks so much, I totally in love with it!

Alright, Done with blogging. Time to get back to serious business~ Ciao~

Tuesday, June 05, 2012

@ Tuesday, June 05, 2012

Always love to blog at night. Reason being I can listen to music and wait for family to go on bed. A time where I can express myself. Today is the 5th. An Important day for my besties. Eugene getting enlist at 9.45,So going to miss him =( Joelle's Econs paper later. Really Hope that joelle can do well and get the grades she wants!=) JIAYOUS! Learning Japanese is tough. Should had taken chinese instead. I know most of the terms my friends learnt in Chinese elective. But what's done can't be undone. So just make sure I put in enough efforts to do well and score. Gotten a bad news from EFMA tutor. She's very nice person, she only asked why. Told her the reason and she's ok with it. Keep telling us to work hard during the holidays and move forward, no point looking backwards.

Something really special happened on Sunday..Was pretty dramatic but I was happy.This is the first time I experience smth like this which make my heart goes so fast. But I know where should the limit be.Being rational at times is good. At least I won't go off track and I know the fact that you will never be mine.

Met up with Eugene on Monday=) Movie treat and dinner treat from him!Which is like an advance birthday present from him He damm funny, when he foot the bill, he was like, "Luckily My pay come in already. I don't treat people de. You will be the first and exceptional one" I was laughing, deep down my heart, Those words really touches me. I never regret knowing you. If There's another life, I want you to be my best friend once again. He correct my mistakes, make sure I do certain precautions on certain matters.He always believe in me, Believe that I can do Well. It's just a matter of I want it or not. Although you are stingy sometimes, But who cares! (Y) I still Love him for who he is now!<3

Those who remembers my birthday eventually will. Don't need any reminders. Thinking of what to get for myself. Either a Kate Spade bag or IPad which I wanted it for a long time. 21st is a big number. But Party is just not for me.I rather go out with a bunch of ppl..Celebrate with different grp of friends.Cos We can bond and no awkwardness among ourselves. Shall list down the presents I have in Mind for now. SUBJECT TO CHANGES!~

Non-Material Presents

The people whom I love with my heart to stay healthy and happy
Do better in Studies and Pull up my GPA.
Pass my FTT and get my license asap
Find that Right person soon. (Provided that he confess first and I like him too XD)

Material Presents

Ipad 2/Kate Spade Bag (buy using my own money)
A nice necklace (Parents getting this for me)
A new handbag for me to use since the one I am using is like 2year old.
Glee Season 1-3 DVD Set
Amzon Kindle e-book reader

Currently, That's about it for the list. I just need a simple meal with my friends and hang-out for a wine/beer/whiskey. That will be really sufficient...=D