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Tuesday, March 20, 2012

@ Tuesday, March 20, 2012

I don't update my blog often,I am quite lazy when comes to updating and stuffs..

Since I have the mood to do so, Shall update!=)

It's my holidays now, Quite a 充实holidays. Kept working and only have a few days of rest..Time seem to go very fast when you worked, and Getting my results in 8hrs time. I don;t know what to expect, or I should not expect anything at all.

Had dinner with one of my bestie just now, I just find that he's talkative for today, kept talking to me from the moment we meet each other. I complain to him I'm hungry and faster ask him decide on the place for dinner..This is the first time I told a guy on the face that I'm hungry. I am just so comfortable with him, and yes, I used to like him,But when I saw him today again, I know the feeling is no longer there anymore. He's just my best friend, someone I know well, and he knows me well too..=) I just like how we are now.And I hope this feeling never stops, My bestie! Typing in his fave colour,and he finally graduated from poly. He told me smth which I never thought that will come out from him. He knows that I can do it,It's just where I want to or not..He is just so unpredictable!

I am glad I manage to get to year 2 of poly, which is so wonderful..Seeing people dropping out from poly and at certain point of time, I have the urge to do so too, Luckily I did not. I manage to get use to poly life now, with wonderful friends in school..I resign from my work, and focus on studying. But It's really hard to be focus if you lose the momentum to keep up with the others. I need to find myself back again, the motivation, the momentum to strive and go further.

I think I like this guy who used to be in the same college in ITE. I think I am going closer with him, but I don't know if how long will the feelings last, 1 mth, a year? I need time to think about it..I feel it's time to find that someone special, but I really had enough of one-side relationships. Being the one who is always confessing is really tiring and I don't want to do it anymore. I know, this is just a way of dragging my time and wasting my youth while waiting for someone to confess to me and I have to like the person at the same time which is not easy at all.. But for now, I keep telling myself to focus on studies and my life first..=)