要快乐很容易，可是要打从心里的开心和笑一点也不容易©

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

@ Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Ystd suppose to be a very bad day for me, wake up early to go for enrolment at ite, i'm suppose to bring some documents along and i can't find them...i rmb i left them on my table and i can't find them after turning my table inside out... Then have to go to the school w/o the documents..early in the mrng i'm super duper pissed out...aft i come back, got a sms from _______ who is asking me to acompany him to go funan to check out laptops and it's only me and him...I was pretty shock and also happy..And i agreed to meet him out..this time, only I&him and no one else...Thanks to me, he make my day better....and he make my dream come true...it's really nice going out with him...and i know that we'll nt be meeting soon, so i'm happy that he asked me out for once.. all i have to say is thank you, thank you for making my day and making my dream come true... BFF and i promise, nothing else.=D

Saturday, March 28, 2009

@ Saturday, March 28, 2009

It's another day, and two more days to a new enivroment with new people.i guess i'll be bringing mixed-feelings to report to the sch..uncertain of the road which is in front of me...Life for me seem always the same, Tv, Maple-ing, listening to radio programmes..went for kenneth's birthday party on wed,b4 that went back to sch, and have a chat with madm aishah and mrs anba..Well, t'chers are NEVER free..haha..that wat i saw from my previous t'chers...It's really nice chatting with mdam aishah and i feel really relax and happy even though i'm just looking at mrs anba while she do her work..HODS of schools, no matter is sec sch or primary sch, their tables are full of things and very very messy..When i'm suppose to leave school for party, weather started to play tricks on me, rain very heavily..so stayed with mrs anba till the rain turn smaller... Reach wayne's hus around 7 and they started BBQ-ing. went back home around 10.30..I dun know when i'll meet my school and classmates again..cos we'll be busy with our own things..Have lots of things to do and prepare now, prepare for sch open, sort out my O's stuffs, Do my hmwk given my t'chers and revision...And for the first time in my life, my b'dae does not fall on the school holidays! at least i can keep myself busy and forget about my 18th birthday. I want suprise on that day, but i tink it's just my wish-ful thinking...ok..have to go n do my transformantions le..=) take care ppl, and i love all of you out there.

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

@ Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Did i really forget him already or i just choose to throw my love for him behind my mind? i dun know, whenever i heard that song, i cried, you came into my mind...Can someone teach me wat to do? We are so close yet so far, do i miss you as a friend or as my lover? I want to tell everyone that i love them, no matter who you are. cos you won't know what will happen to you the next min, i want a proper goodbye with everyone, i do not wan anyone to have regrets for not saying good bye to me when i leave the world... This book i'm reading now really make an impact on me...i almost tear when i read the book, but i have to hold cos i'm reading at coffee bean...I think every night before i sleep, i will say i love you in my heart to everyone i know.. every post, i'll say 'i love you' in the end..

I love all of you! take care and good bye=D

Friday, March 20, 2009

@ Friday, March 20, 2009

I'm not alone, i'm just thinking inside the box..I need to think outside my box..so i would feel lonely, so i won't feel sad..I need to think more postivly. Really thank matin for your encouragment and people who believe in me, thank to all of you so much..I really have bad mood swings nowdays..Haix..two more days and no time for me to waste anymore...Yeah, i kind of like flaming butterfly theme song, it's really nice.. and i like the drama too... can't wait for bobby au new drama..=)

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

@ Wednesday, March 18, 2009

It's hard..it's always hard to do so...Teach me how to hate a person.So i can hate them and forget that they are once there for me. They probably dislike me too, they may be just acting in front of me..I have no idea, and i tell myself not to think about this...I'm a passby-er in your lifes, i'm just nothing , but i treat you guys as friends,but yet this is what i get from you guys..I feel hurted, but what can i do?Beg you guys to be friends with me? I can't do that and will never since you guys treat me like dirt. since you guys said that i have changed, that's no point hanging on to the past and happy times that we had.. Humans have to move on no matter what happens, that applies to everyone in the world. Even you do not want to move, the world will still move w/o you... So, i'll tell myself, It's time to move on, find something better and move towards it..Pls do not guess the person/people and dun ask me, i'll not tell you unless you r real close to me.

Let the post on top alone, i just want to let my thoughts and feelings out... today is just another day, stay at home, play psp, look after daniel and ryan..Shd be going out to study tml..Sch is starting soon, i'm half-way prepared, the only thing is my physiological barrier..that needs time to overcome it..I'm a very emotional person. When people encouragement, my tears will drop, i have no idea why i have become like this, most probably is due to the amt of hurts i have gotten and also i have fallen down too many times till i can't protect myself anymore? I used to be strong, but now i'm not. I look strong on the outside, but who knows about my inner world? only i myself know...I'll have to be strong, there will be more and strong setback when i come out to the society next time, so i have to be strong to withstand them..

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

@ Tuesday, March 17, 2009

有一种爱叫放手，放手后，需要学会爱自己，需要学会一个人生活。其实，一个人可以过得比两个在一起时更好。一个人，可以是自由，也可以是寂寞。要看你这么诠释。。
Ok, it's just a random post..Today suppose go outing but, down with fever, so can't go..now at home waiting for smth...haha..so sianzzz..

Thursday, March 12, 2009

@ Thursday, March 12, 2009

Well..it's just another day..nt really...but today work cos mabel have smth on at home..so have to work in her place and i have yet to do my math homewrk! i'm so dead!Well, life now for me is consider quite good. cos have extra income and get to watch drama..opps..i'm always like that..watching drama now and then.. Ystd went out with joelle to TCC to have dinner, smth really weird n funny happen and i nv thought that it'll happen to me...haha..Sometime i just want to window shop, but i tend to buy stuffs when my bank acc have money or i have extra money to allow me to do so..Gosh, got to stop all these if not i'll be shopperholic! Ok, i have register for O's and is 4subejcts.. i seriously wonder how high can my stress level goes,and how i can manage higher nitec, tution and O's revison, i tink i'll be like joelle..less than 5hrs sleep everyday, busy with sch n O's level till no time for new relationship...I guess that will be a better one for me, i dun wan to tink of him becoming my qing ren. just remain as frens can le...he's nice,really nice guy but ok.Full stop...so yeah, single till i find myself able to score well in acadamic..

Have to revise for math and going to sch tml to collect my cert..=)