要快乐很容易，可是要打从心里的开心和笑一点也不容易©

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

@ Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Hello people.. It’s have been a long time since I update.. Well things are doing quite ok. Just that tml is my O’lvl English oral. I feel so stress-up and scared. Although last year I have experience on English oral for N’lvl, but I’m still scared because O’lvl is a higher standard of English and I heard from my schoolmates that the teachers wasn’t good b’cos of their attitude. I’m stress-up because my picture is not good enough and I really want to score for oral so I will not disappoint my teacher for my English grade. I want to get B3 for English in oral, not just to fulfill wat my English teacher wants, but also wan I want. When was practicing for oral with my techer just now, my classmates who took the oral today told my teacher the oral for today is easy and they have confidence to perform well. This is the part of the reason for being scared for tml. If I were too stress-up in the waiting room, I’ll probably wanna cry. Just now, when doing practice for oral, at times I wan to cry but too many people and I dun wan to cry in front of the people. It’s bad to hide feelings up, but I do not have a choice to do so. I have been having mood swings quite often nowdays which I can’t really control. For example, this moment I may be happy, but the next moment I’ll feel sad, stress or maybe lonely. I dun know.. I dun know who should I talk to.. Joelle? Mrs Anba?Eugene?Olivia?They do also have their own problems and troubles, and all of them are under the pressure of O’lvl too. So I do not want to bother both of them. I really hate the mood swings I have..but what can I do?