要快乐很容易，可是要打从心里的开心和笑一点也不容易©

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

@ Wednesday, March 18, 2009

It's hard..it's always hard to do so...Teach me how to hate a person.So i can hate them and forget that they are once there for me. They probably dislike me too, they may be just acting in front of me..I have no idea, and i tell myself not to think about this...I'm a passby-er in your lifes, i'm just nothing , but i treat you guys as friends,but yet this is what i get from you guys..I feel hurted, but what can i do?Beg you guys to be friends with me? I can't do that and will never since you guys treat me like dirt. since you guys said that i have changed, that's no point hanging on to the past and happy times that we had.. Humans have to move on no matter what happens, that applies to everyone in the world. Even you do not want to move, the world will still move w/o you... So, i'll tell myself, It's time to move on, find something better and move towards it..Pls do not guess the person/people and dun ask me, i'll not tell you unless you r real close to me.

Let the post on top alone, i just want to let my thoughts and feelings out... today is just another day, stay at home, play psp, look after daniel and ryan..Shd be going out to study tml..Sch is starting soon, i'm half-way prepared, the only thing is my physiological barrier..that needs time to overcome it..I'm a very emotional person. When people encouragement, my tears will drop, i have no idea why i have become like this, most probably is due to the amt of hurts i have gotten and also i have fallen down too many times till i can't protect myself anymore? I used to be strong, but now i'm not. I look strong on the outside, but who knows about my inner world? only i myself know...I'll have to be strong, there will be more and strong setback when i come out to the society next time, so i have to be strong to withstand them..